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Sven Scharpen's avatar

I planned on meeting Charlie Kirk in mid-September and talking about what it’s like to grow up when you’re diagnosed with autism.

I had a somewhat normal childhood for autistic standards (which wasn’t free by the way) up until the ninth grade where I was forced to move schools, and lost years of social & developmental progress with the stroke of a pen. In just a few months, I went from being a happy child to a lost boy on the doorstep of transgenderism. I was also placed on Zoloft and Risperdal when I was just 5. Now I see that those that have gone through what I had didn’t avoid transgenderism like I had, and I’m now having a hard time finding likeminded peers.

This is why I’ve been doing everything I possibly can to speak up for a community that has never had a conservative voice before. I looked forward to meeting Charlie to discuss these things, and there’s no doubt in my mind he would have supported me just as much as he did detransitioners. I’m absolutely heart-shattered that I never had the chance to do that.

I will not be giving up though, since these autistic young people deserve SO much better and to live the life that most people take for granted. We deserve a life where we can have loving families, close friends, a proper education, a fitting career, freedom to innovate, dating, and marriage. I founded the Autistic Freedom Network last month, the first conservative autistic organization in history, and my biggest goal is to do for the autistic people what Charlie Kirk did for Gen Z.

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MamaBear4's avatar

Beautifully written and sadly very true. 10 years?

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Linda H's avatar

It will be 11 years next month. He was quite vulnerable so I believe finding the way back is going to be more difficult than most.

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Karla's avatar

This read is an accurate description of my son and his heart breaking story - a lost boy/man. May God rescue, restore, and return our precious sons, brothers, and grandsons. 🙏❤️

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Mom First's avatar

https://youtu.be/KjwzMcBIMRA?si=mHHATaXS_g7pCYJ-

Yes we all know what is happening behind the curtain when we heard the news of the shooting. You might find this interview of a mother interesting as well.

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Linda H's avatar

Definitely worth a listen.

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BowWow's avatar

It’s more than okay. Thank you.

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Running the Race's avatar

Keep praying and I will join you in your prayers. My daughter befriended two “lost boys” at college recently and they actually came to church on the first invite. Granted there was some pink nail polish and they both had lots of hair blocking much eye contact. But they came to our house for lunch afterwards and already said they want to do church and lunch again this week. They are artsy, sweet guys and don’t have dads in the picture. They remind me of my son a bit and also my husband when he was in high school. I am praying hard for them and trying to be a calm, peaceful place of reason. May we all be able to speak life and truth into more of these boys (and girls).

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Linda H's avatar

Nice job, daughter! Thank you for opening up your home to them. Our son’s tragedy really opened our hearts to this community as well. Our daughter has a similar heart and at one point my husband said, “Our house is beginning to feel a bit like an LGBTQ clubhouse.” They really can be some of the most compassionate and creative kids. I strongly desire to provide them with strong and healthy community unlike the unhealthy ones they are drawn into. Given that we are a “sanctuary state” there should be plenty of opportunity.

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BowWow's avatar

Religion doesn't resonate with me, but I appreciate your essay. I try not to even think about trans stuff anymore, but I'm mourning my lost boy this evening. He totally fits your description. It's been a few years of estrangement, and I don't know if he'll ever find his way back to reality and self-love. I don't think he was ever abused, but maybe he was changed by things he found online. A sweet boy who turned bitter and symbolically killed himself and cut himself off of the family tree. Everyone in his extended family adored him. I worry that I won't be around anymore when he finds his way back. I miss him.

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Linda H's avatar

Thanks for sharing that. I also appreciate connections here apart from religion. I’m thankful you could still hear the heart of a mom that understands and aches with you. It sounds like our sons were very much alike. Everyone adored our son as well. I’m thankful you have found life outside of trans. It’s there to be found.

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It's so crazy how similar our stories are! My son was loved by everyone! A smart, quirky theatre kid, came in 3rd in the state spelling bee. We went from having an amazing relationship to him hating me and estranging me to him going numb on half his body and needing to move home. We were thrilled to have him back, but it was also scary at first to have someone living in our home who hated me. It took 3 months of therapy before he would allow me to hug him (and he is a big hugger) and then another 6 months before he could tell me that he loved me. We were both in individual and family therapy. Our relationship was maybe 70-80 percent back to where it used to be before his transition. And then he was wanting to start permanent changes to his body. He had said he wouldn't use hormones or start any surgeries while he was living at home out of respect to his dad and I because we let him move back home. I wasn't prepared for him to start making any changes and needed time to think and pray about him doing more than wearing the ridiculous padded bra and girl clothes that made my skin crawl when he was going out. At home around the family, thankfully, he just wore a tshirt and cargo shorts. So he moved out in September and is dating another boy pretending to be a girl… Even though he likes real girls - he’s learned that living as a pretend girl is off-putting to real girls. I’m grateful he was able to get a job at our local grocery store and has kept his job for one year. I’m praying so hard for him everyday to learn to love himself as he is, stop his hedonistic, selfish lifestyle and come back to us.

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Linda H's avatar

There are more details we share here. Our son got second place in the state spelling bee as a 4th grader. 😊 He had a photographic memory. He was a hugger too. I still remember that last big hug at the stairway of his apartment before he disappeared. From the details we’ve uncovered, it’s hard to imagine how he could be rescued from captivity. If we had an opportunity to take him in, it would require a great deal of therapy as well. The one connection his brother had, left him believing he is trauma bonded. But we know God is able to do far more than we ask or think. Thanks for sharing!

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Running the Race's avatar

I’m sorry and I will be praying for your son and restoration to your family if that is okay.

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Nancy Westgate's avatar

It’s more than okay. Thank you.

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Perry James's avatar

I can't say I like the religious tone of this article, especially since the religion mentioned is such a bad one. Don't get me wrong -- I am deeply religious. But I don't look back 2000 years for my guidance. We have guidance today which is much more rational than the Bible.

We are learning more about God and the afterlife from near-death experiences (NDEs) and a few other metaphysical sources. Reincarnation is a reality. Some people choose the wrong sex for themselves before they go through the forgetting process and become reborn as new babies. Many people come back from their NDEs believing they have spoken with God. Even those people who don't believe that the "being of light" who guides them during their NDE is God, they still absorb the God concept while they are in the afterlife. Huge numbers of them become aware that everything in existence is part of a great Whole, and that Whole is God.

A person who chooses the wrong sex before birth may become transgender. I used to think that was the cause of most of these cases, but now I don't. Being trans has become a fad. Young people who become trans because it's a fad have made the choice for the wrong reason, and learning the importance of being honest with yourself becomes the spiritual lesson for this lifetime. Also, as the article says, large numbers of them are autistic. Their lives aren't working well, and switching to the opposite sex seems a "clean" solution. But the distance between being a not very good member of your own sex, and being a convincing member of the opposite sex, is much much longer than any of them realize. If you are already a boy, your chances of becoming a happy man are much greater than becoming a convincing woman, convincing both to yourself and to others.

Some people become trans to spite their parents, or for the same obsessive reasons that people join cults.

I suspect that trans people all go through the same disillusionment process in the end. At a certain point they realize that the changes to themselves are all cosmetic, and essentially that they failed. They then have two or three unappetizing options: Accept yourself as an imperfect person of the opposite sex, having achieved only the appearance that you sought (and none of the substance), or commit suicide.

The number of reincarnational lives that people live can be just a few, or can run into the hundreds or possibly thousands. I believe that most people who "transition" have made a mistake, and then the lesson of that life becomes the spiritual growth he or she achieved from dealing with the mistake. The point is, we are all immortal, and reality is set up to give us an infinite number of new beginnings. Once we learn what we can from being a human being, we are given a place in one of the heavens in the afterlife that Swedenborg described.

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Linda H's avatar

This is my 8th essay with PITT. In the past I have not brought in my faith as I am aware that this is a space of many diverse backgrounds and beliefs. The incredible beauty and rarity of this space is that we can do just what you are doing - express a different opinion. This was the respect that Charlie Kirk had and encouraged. In honor of him and his wife, I decided to bring faith into this one. Besides believing there is undeniable evidence for Christianity, my faith is and has been the anchor in this time of our son’s absence. Knowing he has been trafficked and lives a hellish, trauma-bonded life, it gives me comfort and hope. Thank you for your respectful response. Peace be with you.

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Perry James's avatar

If I went too far, I apologize. You certainly have a right to believe what you want. But to me, Christianity is a religion without evidence. The modern metaphysical sources that I have been studying are full of evidence, near-death experiences in particular. Those near-death experiences are neutral on religion, and also neutral on such things as homosexuality (I'm gay) and other harmless "sins". Everyone comes before a "being of light". The dying person has latitude in identifying who the being of light is, and many people identify it as Jesus. Others see an angel, or Muhammad, or Buddha, or just a being that they don't try to put an identity on.

To add to the animus that I feel for Christian activists, they are actively posting fake NDEs on YouTube. In a typical fake NDE, some God-fearing Christian has an NDE and finds himself in the afterlife, where he conveniently meets Jesus. Jesus then escorts the man (or woman) into hell, where he finds Muslims, Jews, atheists, gays and other sinners burning in Hellfire. These fake NDE testimonials are usually made with artificial intelligence. There is lots of evidence that they are fake, and constitute further evidence that Christians are getting desperate as the religion loses followers.

My negative feelings about Christianity started when my best childhood friend was a born-again Christian -- that was when we were both about 13 or 14. That friend was so wrapped up in the Bible that he believed his own parents would go to hell because they weren't faithful enough. Over the years, I learned that he had the same opinion about me, because I was gay. He has since grown up to be a minister whose claim to fame is that he interprets the Bible literally, including the six-day creation.

The Bible makes it clear that a majority of people will be consigned to hell or oblivion when the Judgement comes. On the other hand, the God I believe in is loving in all respects and condemns no one to hell. A mystic named Emanuel Swedenborg lived two centuries ago (in Sweden). (Swedenborg was a Christian, but didn't interpret the Bible literally.) He had (or claimed to have) the ability to project his astral body into the afterlife, where he found multiple heavens and multiple hells. Swedenborg learned that the hells were not designed for punishment, but rather to give evil people a place to live where they could practice their evil pleasures. The souls who end up there are the ones who couldn't find a way to be loving despite reincarnating many times. (The purpose of reincarnation is spiritual growth. For reasons I still haven't figured out, physical life is more conducive to spiritual growth than our natural state in the afterlife as souls composed of energy.)

In other words, no one is condemned in the end. That is the God that I believe in, a God who is the embodiment of love.

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I don't see anything wrong in what I said, and I'm not open to being scolded for no good reason. I always speak my mind, and I won't be "cutting that out" any time soon.

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Put a lid on it, please. Christians are famous for telling other people what to believe and do. In this country, Christianity isn't so much a religion as it is a political party.

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Perry James's avatar

Please find someone else to argue with.

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Brenda Childs's avatar

Oh boy this really hit me...so much of it applies to what my situation was, son on the spectrum, gamer, intelligent, and after some things he mentioned over the years perhaps abused or at the least subjected to sexual things that a young person should never be subjected to...even if only online. It changes them. He turned to self harm. It's a long story but want to say to keep praying because God delivered my son about a year ago now. Every story is so different. I wanted to share a video he created on YouTube he called "Burn in hell Jezebel". I think it tells a lot and interestingly it seems to come up in a simple google search (2:30 long posted 10/27/24). He created several others that I have listened to over and over as well trying to figure out what goes on/went on in his head because these "autistic" kids seem to have a totally different mindset. God has big plans for all of them....I truly believe it. The world appears to be a mess right now but God is at work and we are going to see some really awesome days ahead!

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Linda H's avatar

Wow. I just watched your son’s video. Thank you for sharing! I have good reason to think our son faced some sort of abuse online as well. He is still captive in more ways than one but I believe, “the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save, or his ear dull, that it cannot hear.” Isaiah 59:1 I know He is at work in each of us at this very moment and it is for me to trust and obey.

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Brenda Childs's avatar

That is absolutely right! I asked for prayer for my son everywhere I went..and talked to many prophetic people. It gave me great comfort that God knows all and HE knew the journey my son was going to take. He knows the end from the beginning. Things ARE changing…and I believe we are soon to see a great move of the hand of God. My son also did another one he called “In the language of angels” where he talks about his tribulation and pain. His friends studio became his therapy …everything is going to be Ok in the end!

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Ann's avatar

Praying daily for this madness to end.

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GrannyAnny's avatar

Beautifully written. I do pray for lost boys and girls and very much so for their parents several of whom are friends. Our ministry in Spokane WA has an arm just for prayer for these lost children and has done so for 10 years. I'm sure there are many groups now doing the same through churches or groups of friends. The heart is deceitful above all else says the prophet Jeremiah. So true. Only the grace and power of God can make the scales fall away. On of my family members was a ghostwriter for Charlie early on in TPUSA. She says in all the meetings by Zoom with him and his team they were always a kind and gracious group, a class act. From her slightly insider perspective as gracious as in public.

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Linda H's avatar

Thanks for sharing this!

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Harold Masters's avatar

As most of you know, I disliked Charlie Kirk. That being said, I do not believe in political violence of any sort, and it’s good that he was trying to help these boys. (We know his opinion of girls.)

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Linda H's avatar

I know a lot of people have very ill opinions of him. I didn’t know what to think of him when I heard of his assassination. Given the number of people who have been deplatformed and defamed fighting gender ideology, I felt it was worth taking the time to do some research and found many good sources where the lies regarding him were debunked. Including the one about girls.

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Oh Susanna's avatar

Please don't defame him after his death by lying about him. Charlie clearly adored his wife and daughter and treated women with respect. As a woman, I stand with him.

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Harold Masters's avatar

Wanting them to be wives and mothers and not having careers they might love is not how I would define respect.

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Marie's avatar

You know what’s ironic? Erika is now the CEO of Turning Point, a large and growing organization. CK had established than in the case of his death, she would take over for him. So, obviously he had great respect for Erika, and she wasn’t in any way squelched or diminished as his wife.

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I have worked both in and out of the house and the most important work was when I was at home raising a child. It's society that has made it not a career nor important. Shame on feminist for doing just that. And I am a feminist. Just not the kind that doesn't honor and value femininity and the important work of raising a family and being a nurturer. Does it have to be the female? No, it doesn't. But if the female wants that role, then let's respect that. Noticed I used the word female because some delusional men think they are women.

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We see things very differently. There's nothing more meaningful than loving, being loved, and raising the next generation. And I say that as a woman who married late, doesn't have children, and does have a career. He respected women far more by telling them to live according to what they were made for, than those who lie to us by telling us a career is the most fulfilling and meaningful thing we can do.

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Eleganta's avatar

It wasn't up to him to tell women how to live our lives. It's not up to anybody to tell women how to live our lives--certainly not a man.

Every woman has as much right to choose her life as any man does.

That's what Harold is saying.

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I don't think Charlie would disagree with you, nor do I. But everyone has a vision of what is best that they do attempt to convince others of, including Harold.

What Charlie did do was encourage women to live according to their nature as women, which, like it or not, is normally oriented toward having and raising children. Society has done women a great disservice in telling them that they SHOULD value a career over family. Given that that goes against most women's nature, it tends toward making women unhappy. What women need is permission to want and pursue having a family. He gave them a true map of the terrain, if you will.

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Mom22's avatar

The problem with these kids saying they were abused (not to trivialize true abuse) is that the internet trolls have convinced them that ANY attempt to parent is abuse. Everything & anything is to be accepted & any attempt to guide or teach or invoke consequences is abuse. They must be 100% accepted no matter what they do. And we now have a generation of snowflakes that speak in such evil tongues to their parents. Our child had so many advantages but she insists she is a disabled victim & should have no expectations placed on her. None of this is an accident.

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BowWow's avatar

Yes, yes, yes!

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LovingMother's avatar

I hear you on that.

And then there are kids who I believe have been sexually abused by other "kids" but do not see it. Everything is "normal", right?

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Mom22's avatar

The trolls are pushing these kids towards the Children's Rights movement but not in a healthy way, instead in a warped, perverted & pedophile way by endorsing sexual rights for children as well which we all know is merely to make it easier to exploit them.

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Chuck Marshall's avatar

Thank you for writing this truth !!

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GenderRealistMom's avatar

Thank you for this beautiful essay.

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