You must start focusing on yourself and taking care of YOU! I was once married to a man who was an angry alcoholic, and he was verbally. mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive to me. I was terrified of him but finally got up enough courage to leave him because I had a six-month-old baby girl to protect. When he pushed me down the stairs while I was holding her, I knew then that he would one day end my life if I stayed. I also did not want my daughter to grow up watching this abuse and then have haunting memories of daddy slapping, pushing and kicking mommy. I left and never looked back, he was not a part of my daughter's life, and he died in his 40's from "complications due to severe alcoholism" which is what was written on his death certificate. No one questioned why I left, I was not judged, I was not rejected - people understood what domestic violence meant. I read so many essays on this sub stack about parents caught up in an abusive relationship with their trans-child. It breaks my heart. My advice to you and any other victim - walk away, do not look back. You did not create this trans-cult, and you certainly did not project it onto your child. Brainwashed, influenced, affirmed or not - your child has no right to talk to you with such hate by saying hurtful words and swearing. Enough is enough. Tough love is just that - tough. Move on and find what brings you joy - learn to paint a canvas of flowers in a garden, join a quilting circle, take ballroom dance lessons, learn how to play Mahjong, or bridge, or Canasta. The trans-cult ideology causes so much confusion in children - as they all have some doubt about becoming the opposite sex, but the cult cheerleaders keep pushing them down the rabbit hole, until it is too late. Mental illness - yes, it can be treated with the right therapy, with the correct medication, with proper nutrition, education, and the right environment. But not being treated only causes continued angry outbursts, eventual self-harm, and even suicide. My nephew was very mean to my sister and brother-in-law when he was declaring to be trans. They were sad when he suddenly left home and disappeared, but they were also relieved that the turmoil in their home was gone. The trans-cults mission is to destroy family relationships, to rob innocent children of a healthy future, to steal the identity of children, to wreak havoc on their minds, and prevent an entire generation from reproducing. Horribly and dreadfully sad. As their parent or guardian, you must find a way to survive this insane ordeal. Look into a mirror and the person you see looking back at you needs your help. Do not let this cult take anything else from you.
Excellent advice all around, Grandma Eileen. "Look into a mirror and the person you see looking back at you needs your help." I don't believe truer words were ever spoken!
My heart two is so grieved over our children. We must not lose heart, but continue to pray Luke 18:1 tells us in his holy word. Also, we can remember that what is impossible with man is made possible with God.Luke 18:27. It’s a daily struggle to put on the armor of God, and keep focused on him throughout this journey. But when we do, the words of Isaiah 26:3 ring true. Those who keep their mine fixed on Him will be kept in perfect peace. Over the past several years, my husband and I have found great comfort in his word, and we have started a prayer group at our church for other parents and grandparents of children along this journey. Coming together monthly to pray over the children and share encouragement, and hope with one another Has been a huge blessing in our lives. I will continue to pray for you and your situation, but I encourage you to hold on to the Hope, which is found in our Lord!
You have my sympathy, and I believe you must choose yourself and life and reality over your son's delusions. It's as if they're all possessed, possibly by identities emanating from the trans death cult. They seem to have no concept of what it really means to be a man or a woman, the Left has so successfully blurred the line. I also think they're terrified of actually becoming men and women, and that they must believe that transitioning to the opposite sex is some kind of solution.
Many of the males seem to be the worst affected, with narcissism (and misogyny) off the charts, and their cruelty seems designed to sever the parental bond. When reading these articles, I'm always amazed at what loving parents they are determined to escape. And all because that gorgeous butterfly can't emerge from the chrysalis so long as the parents reflect the past and reality.
No matter where you are in this journey or what side of the political aisle or if you are a believer in God or not, the truth is the truth. I suggest going to YouTube and search "woke mind virus Isaiah Saldivar" and find an 11:40 long video called "Elon Musk loses his son to a dark agenda". This cult is intertwined with so many other things...and all a part of a depopulation agenda (the Georgia Guidestones first guide is to "maintain humanity under 500,000,000). After what was posted on social media over the weekend, I believe that soon we will see the crumbling of this evil that has been trying to destroy humanity...good always wins over evil. It's just so hard to watch especially when it hits your home :(. I am so fortunate that my son came out of the cult about 8 months ago now. Every situation is so different. He created a video that he made up the words to ad lib in a friends studio that he called "burn in hell jezebel'. Interestingly it comes up in a simple google search (2:30 long posted 10/27/24). I don't understand exactly what he is meaning by a lot of the words, but knowing what I do know about him it goes really deep. Hang in there because I believe everything will be OK for all of us. Prodigals will come home and be awakened to what caused them to fall into this lie in the first place!
Broken forever. Pretty much sums up how I have felt ever since the evil, death cult captured my daughter.
We had a wonderful relationship throughout her difficult childhood, through her teens & as a beautiful young woman. But, everything changed nearly two years ago when I got "the txt message".
My husband & I were shocked & deeply worried & disturbed by her decision to trans. Coming out as LGB is one thing but making a decision to deliberately & systematically do self harm in an impossible attempt to become a man is ludicrous & irreversible!
I to will not accept that the daughter I gave birth to is dead nor that her name is also. I cannot & will not affirm or condone this death cult behaviour & life choice. Regardless of the fact that we are well aware that she was groomed & indoctrinated by evil, we thought that our daughter would soon see the mental & physical self harm & have the strength to reach out for our help.
Sadly, as time goes on, we have to accept that she may never come back to us in anyway & that if she does, it may be too late or even worse. I too have suffered, cried, been on the end of abusive demands by my daughter.
I have to say I believe I am lucky that she resides in a country a long way away from us so I don't have to witness this self destruction & the physical results or medications. It makes it so much easier for my husband & I to get on with our lives.
I was told by my wonderful doctor that I would learn to accept it in time. I promptly told her that it would never happen. I refuse to live as someone who denies truth & plays along with such an evil ideology. I actually believe that my refusal to accept her demands re names, gender ID etc. upsets her so much & confuses her that she has to block me out of her life so to protect herself from the truth.
I have been on anti depressants since her birth (31 years ago) that were working well but was lately having suicidal thoughts. My doctor increased the dose & I can go a whole day without shedding tears. Don't get me wrong, I still grieve daily for my lost daughter but I can see a friend now without having to try to force back tears that would always come. I don't have the weekly emotional breakdowns in front of my husband that I would instantly feel guilty about.
In an earlier post I made a comment in reply to another mothers emotional post. In it I agreed that my love for my daughter was diminished. I have to say that after much thought I need to correct this. I now believe that to describe my love for her as diminished is not accurate. I think a better description is that our relationship is forever tarnished. I hope & pray that this tarnish can be polished away by truth & love so that our relationship can be restored to the once loving kind.
I too wish to thank PITT. May we all find joy & love again with our lost kids! Bless you all.
So many neurodivergent/ autism spectrum young people are seduced into taking the “born in the wrong body” metaphor as literally true. Clinicians should know better.
I’ve written about my experiences of transition, detransition & autism at length on my substack. If your kid has ASD traits, their gender situation is likely an outgrowth of their other social/emotional/sensory issues. I hope my series on autism in girls can help many parents (though much of the information may be applicable to boys as well)
Maia Poet, do you think that your substack is "safe reading" for youth currently still caught up in this ideology? You describe my son very well & I would like to be able to send him the link, but ...
You are not broken forever, but I know it feels that way. 💔 When I can’t make any sense of this madness, I remind myself to trust in the Lord with all my heart, and lean NOT upon my own understanding. To acknowledge Him in all of my ways, and trust that (somehow!) He will make this path straight! Sometimes it’s hard to see the way out when we are deep in the valley, but He never loses sight of any of us, and He has his eye on your son at all times. Sending you love!💘
This is my story! Except my child was a daughter. And she went to Smith College, not Brown. She was valedictorian of her high school class of 650. She excelled in everything she did and was well liked and respected among her peers. The cult took over her life while she was away at college. She now lives as a man and I hear she is married to a woman. Not sure if biological or trans. Her dad and I did not affirm. We took her off of our medical insurance plan when she began testosterone (we received the EOB, which informed us). She betrayed our trust in her to graduate from this school of all women with her given name. I had all I could do not to burst out crying when I saw her chosen male name in the graduation program. It was a very dark time for her dad and me. It has been 13 years. We are still estranged and I still cry sometimes. It is still absolutely heartbreaking and devastating to have lost our daughter. But I no longer live in daily darkness. The loss will always be with me, but we are at peace with our decision to not affirm.
I hope you feel some comfort in hearing the shared experiences of other parents who are grieving like you are. Nobody knows the excrutiating pain like we do. Hugs and hope to you for the sense of peace that you deserve.
You should submit feedback and let parents of prospective students know how Brown University is brainwashing and pushing transgenderism on its students here: https://college.genspect.org/
I suspect you continue to love him with every ounce of your being. The mantle he’s hiding under is not him. Your love will remain once the mantle crumbles. ❤️
When you stayed quiet on “porn” you invited this madness. Karma. Your son is a porn addict and you basically co-signed it along with everyone else while boys withered and died.
Crimson, your comment about staying quiet seems to assume something that Broken Forever did not write. In any case, all the parents broken hearted by their loss of a child to transgenderism are sincerely grieving, and to say a parent INVITED this grief is false and cruel.
It’s cruel but not false. We let them steal our boys from us and mind rspe them while we smiled and said oh well. You too. Where the hell is everyone on this crisis? How can a single person think trans is real?
The biggest thing to me has been the personality change. I don’t think all of us have had the same amount of vitriol but for those of us that have it has been a complete shocker. My son truly was a sweet boy, but he, along with his brothers, seem to have lost all sense of respect, honor & decency. And all within a cloak of reasonable clarity & superior morality. For now, they seem to be doing ok, they are employed, but how long this will last, only time will tell. I wouldn’t say they are thriving. If they were, they’d let us in, even if we didn’t succumb to the language
Our daughter was always sweet & gentle and she also underwent a 100% personality change and reinvented the past. The extra weird thing is that now - years in - her personality is almost completely back to normal but she is religiously applying cross sex hormones daily. This is someone who was always the gifted "absent minded professor" type who growing up could never remember to do much in the day to day world outside of her brilliant head.
I have never succumbed to the language. Not one inch. The problem is that the entire world around us did gaslight her.
We've been in it since something like 2017 or 2018. She underwent a complete personality change, thought we were jerks, and did not respond to her name. I would only use her name or an endearment (which was normal for us). Her mannerisms were unrecognizable to me. Things were very strained for a long time. She wasn't really speaking to us for a good part of high school.
More recently she is sweet and loving again. She doesn't seem to mind that we use her real name although I know that is not what she uses out in the world. I think she has matured somewhat and understands that we love her but disagree. She thinks she knows better and we read the wrong things. Much of the time when she is engaged with things that interest her she seems like her old self.
At the same time, she still believes in the cult/trans/doctors/that you take certain steps... I am upset that the Frankenstein Industrial Complex is not over yet and that she can even receive cross sex hormones with a tiny co-pay. We have held medicalization at bay for so long but she's begun. :-(
Wow…that’s so peculiar & also contrary to what I thought, that T makes you more aggressive & somewhat erratic. This must be very hard for you. It really is on them to stop isn’t it. Is she being cheered on?
Everything about all of this has been peculiar if you ask me - including the normalization of transexual "medicine". OK, long before that we could not believe that the high school was on board with the Ideology and called her "he". They only beamed and smiled as we crumbled.
No one seems to care outside of our underground substack sort of thing. I am blue in the face writing on these places. We are only at the point where maybe little children will not be chopped anymore - maybe?
She and the relationship healed a bit. But then she went ahead with the cross sex hormone gel anyway and she has not been doing it very long so I don't see a lot of effects yet.
"It really is on them to stop isn’t it." I guess?
Maybe it is on society to end this medical experiment that has no controls - where vulnerable young people are prepped in the education system? I don't even recognize our country sometimes.
"Is she being cheered on?" She has been cheered on for so long I don't think she knows another way? And, doctors inform her these days at one of these wonderful clinics that are so proud of their work. Hanging is too good for them (legal hanging after Nuremberg trials).
Nuremberg 2.0 IS coming and I believe people will be able to watch executions if they choose. Luke 17:2 says " It would be better for them to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around their neck than to cause one of these little ones to stumble". I actually handwrote a note and took it to the doctor's office who was prescribing my son's hormones and said something like "you have at least one doctor here who is either knowingly or unknowingly doing the devil's work"...and can't remember what I followed with but something about truth would eventually come out. It's not only this either.... "One nation under blackmail". A big part of the Jeffrey Epstein story is about blackmailing members of the government. I've seen so much as 98% of the US Government will fall once all is exposed. Things are heating up and I am hopeful that very soon all WILL be exposed and our world can heal! It is a global situation as we know. Makes my blood boil but those guilty of all of these atrocities will answer to the judge over all the earth! That being said we are told to pray for our enemies... SO much is happening. Do a search for "operation restore justice". 205 Child sex abuse offenders were arrested. Some of this is coming from our kids being targeted online which is why everything really exploded during covid when all kids were home on their computers :(! Julie Green on rumble did a great video today talking about a lot of this.
Oh my goodness so she really has the whole support network surrounding her. That makes me furious when they give you the big brave smile. As if to say, look, you can do it. I know it’s hard but you must. LIE just like we are. I guess I wanted to feel hopeful for you that she accepts your different opinion. My son has been no contact for years now with us. He spoke a few months ago to my husband, we hoped it might be a move forward to a compromise but he followed up by even stronger ultimatums, saying we blew our chance, we misgendered, blah blah blah. Unbelievable. We’ll make this movement collapse. I hope for your daughter before she goes any deeper.
Hi Alexander. I responded to Anon. I am sure I have not laid out every detail and I am trying to understand our situation myself. If you have any insight that could help I am all ears. We no longer have the lever of "we will stop paying for college" if you self harm by "healthcare" system.
2) he's telling you to f** off because he's f**d up in his mind. He doesn't look, talk and act like himself because that's not himself. His true self is not dead but dormant somewhere in a corner of his soul, awaiting his awakening to reality.
3) The death cult is terrified by the parent of the same self identifying sex (so mom for a son who's deluded into believing he's a girl) because you're the real thing. And your mere existence and presence threatens the whole charade.
4) it's far from over. He may be going deeper in the pit presently but it won't always be like that. As I keep repeating ad nauseum, the trans life is a long arduous and lonely journey. I was years into it before i saw the light. He may very well emerge from it. Don't lose hope.
5) you need to put yourself first. Take good care of you. Protect your heart. Do stuff that make you happy. You could do nothing to prevent him from being captured and you are not responsible to get him out. It won't happen until he's ready. Live your life as happy as you can, free from false sense of guilt and debilitating sorrow. It's not your fault he's trans. Your mistakes didn't make him trans. Otherwise all kids would be trans because all parents make mistakes. Choose joy. It's legit that your kid remains an important part in your heart but he doesn't have to be the beginning, end and center of your life
Emphasize “take care of yourself first”. Like the airplane instructions say, if you are traveling with a child and the oxygen masks deploy because plane is damaged, put your own oxygen on first so you will stay conscious to help your child.
This ideology, this interconnecting set of ideas about gender, sex, transexuality, about parenting and parents and the role of the state, doctors, therapists, activists... all these ideas have been absorbed into the worldview of people of a liberal ideology, another set of interconnected ideas - including the that one should be open to new ideas, that tolerance is good, that what might seem whacky could be fine - ideas that used to say nothing specific about the aforementioned set of ideas. But the liberal set of ideas had no or little protection from the trans set of ideas. It turned out liberals didn't even know basic biology with much certainty. It turned out that many of us had such low self-esteem that if there was the threat we might be called 'transphobic' - a new word, but it sounded sort of racist - we would back down faced with any kind of insane idea. I guess we weren't quite as smart, or as strong or as virtuous as we thought we were.
Dear BrokeN : Yes our children are broken and only eyes of faith, hope, love, mercy, grace, and forgiveness can see thru to a different ending. I hate the makeup, costume getups etc. But I don't hate my son and you are struggling with giving into that rabbit hole! That is what evil wants and as soon as you see the battle against evil not your kid it will flip your paradigm. I sympathize with the anger and disappointment but in the word of the famous American lyric and song writer Johnny Mercer: "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative, latch on to the affirmative and don't mess with Mr. Inbetween. Spread joy up to the maximum, bring gloom down to the minimum, have faith or pandemonium is libel to walk upon the scene." Start turning your situation over to God and see with new eyes this this devilish situation can be redeemed for those who turn with their whole heart to the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. This is the higher narrow path and I highly recommended you to go to the Father of us all to heal your broken heart which is of great value to God.
This is so true...and what someone else said about many people we don't even know are praying for our kids. It wasn't long after I truly surrendered and believed that it was not my fault, but the devil at work to steal kill and destroy in any and every way he could, that my son was delivered from this cult.
Below are the lyrics my son created ad lib in a friend's studio and He called the video "Burn in hell Jezebel". I literally listened to all of his other lyrics on his YouTube channel to try to understand what he was thinking. I believe he used his friend's studio as a therapy session. Praise God he is no longer doing to himself what he was doing but he is still fighting other things (as we all are in some way I suppose). I do believe God is at work in all of our kids, and HE has big plans for ALL of them (and us)!
Meadows burning
The sun is shining while it's dropping
I know that it's hard to cope
with what no one could ever really be stopping
It's inevitable the Father's plan this
self fulfilling prophecy
Children of the stars
Blown into being by the breath of a loving God
But the anger has boiled to the top
And I don't think it could ever really be stopped
All This pain has been too much to watch
And to those dozen sets of eyes I say I'm sorry
If I was the last that makes me the first
And I know that it all really hurts
But at least I'm here, suffering along side you
While I call down the heavens
Someone's got to do it no one else will like apologize
and actually have a place
and actually know thy mistakes
Oh Jezebel you ***** whore,
Burn in hell forevermore
Soft tunes are important
the juxtaposition keeps everything moving while I
fill this portent with venom
and it goes into this syringe
that is audibly injected into the bellies
of the serpent...
and every evil that would bring this pain and you don't deserve it.
Hi Brenda : Thanks for your response to my post. The statement that : "It wasn't long after I truly surrendered and believed that it was not my fault, but the devil at work to steal kill and destroy in any and every way he could, that my son was delivered from this cult." It doesn't quite square with what I posited in my post. Whether we are guilty as parents seems counter productive to claim. That is not the process I went through or am going thru. I admit my many mistakes before God and some could have contributed to tearing down of protection for him against the wiles of the devil ....we as co sinners in this world do contribute to the whole mess. You have hit upon what I think is this situations blind spot for us as parents. What I said was that I wasn't going to fight on the side of the evil originating in my child but he has agreed to this foolishness so I must pray the battle on the side of the origin so that it can be pulled down in hopes of a ray of God's grace can recapture my son and all the sons and daughters who we pray for. We want God to give us all new sight and a new heart and to take away our heart of stone and replace it with a heart of tender flesh. I was responding to the original post that this poor parent laments a temptation to toss the relationship away. That would just add fuel to the fire...it's a flight mechinism that we all can fall prey to in our natural state ...but not our new born again spiritual identity. In that newness of Spirit we have mercy, grace, forgiveness and hope. We must confess where God shows us how we have contributed to the mess we are in and become better ambassadors of Christ. I know that's another diatribe and I hope I don't offend.
I probably should have clarified…or maybe I misunderstood..but by what I said I should have gone on to say that I was changing the way I dealt with it knowing that so much of this is just the devil at work..blaming myself was only keeping me from fighting spiritually because we are absolutely I believe in a very difficult spiritual battle…but we have the power to “trample on serpents and scorpions” so I knew then that I needed to change my strategy in fighting the lie that my son had somehow been brainwashed to believe. I prayed, others prayed, and God delivered him not only from the prescriptions he was injecting but also from the cutting that he had been doing for a very long time! There is SO much behind all
This…If you are familiar with rumble, Julie Green had a very encouraging word today…giving some insight into how we got here. I do believe the end to this is near!🙏🙏🙏
Thanks be to God for your sons deliverance and may others be encouraged by this miracle. By the way that trample of serpents " from Luke 10:19 was to the disciples for that mission and their future missions as apostles and not a general principal of all believers in Jesus. Also your son and my son have been "brainwashed" by the prince of the power of the air" . Satan in his schemes is very clever as an "idea" contagion maker. Trans is one of his latest schemes that he has been working on since the garden: "Did God really say?" Same deception. He will use the slightest sin and build a system on it. The world, the flesh and the devil and the lust of the eyes, the lust of the flesh and the pride of life are the battleground of life on earth. Those are also the battles that we have to put on the full armour of God and as it says in 2 Corn. 10: 5: "casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ." Having done all we need to stand. I pray that you are firmly fixed and standing against all the onslaughts of the enemies that wage against our souls and the should of our children. Bless you and your son and may the victories keep coming! To the glory of God.
You must start focusing on yourself and taking care of YOU! I was once married to a man who was an angry alcoholic, and he was verbally. mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive to me. I was terrified of him but finally got up enough courage to leave him because I had a six-month-old baby girl to protect. When he pushed me down the stairs while I was holding her, I knew then that he would one day end my life if I stayed. I also did not want my daughter to grow up watching this abuse and then have haunting memories of daddy slapping, pushing and kicking mommy. I left and never looked back, he was not a part of my daughter's life, and he died in his 40's from "complications due to severe alcoholism" which is what was written on his death certificate. No one questioned why I left, I was not judged, I was not rejected - people understood what domestic violence meant. I read so many essays on this sub stack about parents caught up in an abusive relationship with their trans-child. It breaks my heart. My advice to you and any other victim - walk away, do not look back. You did not create this trans-cult, and you certainly did not project it onto your child. Brainwashed, influenced, affirmed or not - your child has no right to talk to you with such hate by saying hurtful words and swearing. Enough is enough. Tough love is just that - tough. Move on and find what brings you joy - learn to paint a canvas of flowers in a garden, join a quilting circle, take ballroom dance lessons, learn how to play Mahjong, or bridge, or Canasta. The trans-cult ideology causes so much confusion in children - as they all have some doubt about becoming the opposite sex, but the cult cheerleaders keep pushing them down the rabbit hole, until it is too late. Mental illness - yes, it can be treated with the right therapy, with the correct medication, with proper nutrition, education, and the right environment. But not being treated only causes continued angry outbursts, eventual self-harm, and even suicide. My nephew was very mean to my sister and brother-in-law when he was declaring to be trans. They were sad when he suddenly left home and disappeared, but they were also relieved that the turmoil in their home was gone. The trans-cults mission is to destroy family relationships, to rob innocent children of a healthy future, to steal the identity of children, to wreak havoc on their minds, and prevent an entire generation from reproducing. Horribly and dreadfully sad. As their parent or guardian, you must find a way to survive this insane ordeal. Look into a mirror and the person you see looking back at you needs your help. Do not let this cult take anything else from you.
Excellent advice all around, Grandma Eileen. "Look into a mirror and the person you see looking back at you needs your help." I don't believe truer words were ever spoken!
My heart two is so grieved over our children. We must not lose heart, but continue to pray Luke 18:1 tells us in his holy word. Also, we can remember that what is impossible with man is made possible with God.Luke 18:27. It’s a daily struggle to put on the armor of God, and keep focused on him throughout this journey. But when we do, the words of Isaiah 26:3 ring true. Those who keep their mine fixed on Him will be kept in perfect peace. Over the past several years, my husband and I have found great comfort in his word, and we have started a prayer group at our church for other parents and grandparents of children along this journey. Coming together monthly to pray over the children and share encouragement, and hope with one another Has been a huge blessing in our lives. I will continue to pray for you and your situation, but I encourage you to hold on to the Hope, which is found in our Lord!
You have my sympathy, and I believe you must choose yourself and life and reality over your son's delusions. It's as if they're all possessed, possibly by identities emanating from the trans death cult. They seem to have no concept of what it really means to be a man or a woman, the Left has so successfully blurred the line. I also think they're terrified of actually becoming men and women, and that they must believe that transitioning to the opposite sex is some kind of solution.
Many of the males seem to be the worst affected, with narcissism (and misogyny) off the charts, and their cruelty seems designed to sever the parental bond. When reading these articles, I'm always amazed at what loving parents they are determined to escape. And all because that gorgeous butterfly can't emerge from the chrysalis so long as the parents reflect the past and reality.
No matter where you are in this journey or what side of the political aisle or if you are a believer in God or not, the truth is the truth. I suggest going to YouTube and search "woke mind virus Isaiah Saldivar" and find an 11:40 long video called "Elon Musk loses his son to a dark agenda". This cult is intertwined with so many other things...and all a part of a depopulation agenda (the Georgia Guidestones first guide is to "maintain humanity under 500,000,000). After what was posted on social media over the weekend, I believe that soon we will see the crumbling of this evil that has been trying to destroy humanity...good always wins over evil. It's just so hard to watch especially when it hits your home :(. I am so fortunate that my son came out of the cult about 8 months ago now. Every situation is so different. He created a video that he made up the words to ad lib in a friends studio that he called "burn in hell jezebel'. Interestingly it comes up in a simple google search (2:30 long posted 10/27/24). I don't understand exactly what he is meaning by a lot of the words, but knowing what I do know about him it goes really deep. Hang in there because I believe everything will be OK for all of us. Prodigals will come home and be awakened to what caused them to fall into this lie in the first place!
Broken forever. Pretty much sums up how I have felt ever since the evil, death cult captured my daughter.
We had a wonderful relationship throughout her difficult childhood, through her teens & as a beautiful young woman. But, everything changed nearly two years ago when I got "the txt message".
My husband & I were shocked & deeply worried & disturbed by her decision to trans. Coming out as LGB is one thing but making a decision to deliberately & systematically do self harm in an impossible attempt to become a man is ludicrous & irreversible!
I to will not accept that the daughter I gave birth to is dead nor that her name is also. I cannot & will not affirm or condone this death cult behaviour & life choice. Regardless of the fact that we are well aware that she was groomed & indoctrinated by evil, we thought that our daughter would soon see the mental & physical self harm & have the strength to reach out for our help.
Sadly, as time goes on, we have to accept that she may never come back to us in anyway & that if she does, it may be too late or even worse. I too have suffered, cried, been on the end of abusive demands by my daughter.
I have to say I believe I am lucky that she resides in a country a long way away from us so I don't have to witness this self destruction & the physical results or medications. It makes it so much easier for my husband & I to get on with our lives.
I was told by my wonderful doctor that I would learn to accept it in time. I promptly told her that it would never happen. I refuse to live as someone who denies truth & plays along with such an evil ideology. I actually believe that my refusal to accept her demands re names, gender ID etc. upsets her so much & confuses her that she has to block me out of her life so to protect herself from the truth.
I have been on anti depressants since her birth (31 years ago) that were working well but was lately having suicidal thoughts. My doctor increased the dose & I can go a whole day without shedding tears. Don't get me wrong, I still grieve daily for my lost daughter but I can see a friend now without having to try to force back tears that would always come. I don't have the weekly emotional breakdowns in front of my husband that I would instantly feel guilty about.
In an earlier post I made a comment in reply to another mothers emotional post. In it I agreed that my love for my daughter was diminished. I have to say that after much thought I need to correct this. I now believe that to describe my love for her as diminished is not accurate. I think a better description is that our relationship is forever tarnished. I hope & pray that this tarnish can be polished away by truth & love so that our relationship can be restored to the once loving kind.
I too wish to thank PITT. May we all find joy & love again with our lost kids! Bless you all.
https://open.substack.com/pub/maiapoet/p/the-misunderstood-autistic-girl-to?r=1gcde6&utm_medium=ios
So many neurodivergent/ autism spectrum young people are seduced into taking the “born in the wrong body” metaphor as literally true. Clinicians should know better.
I’ve written about my experiences of transition, detransition & autism at length on my substack. If your kid has ASD traits, their gender situation is likely an outgrowth of their other social/emotional/sensory issues. I hope my series on autism in girls can help many parents (though much of the information may be applicable to boys as well)
Maia Poet, do you think that your substack is "safe reading" for youth currently still caught up in this ideology? You describe my son very well & I would like to be able to send him the link, but ...
You are not broken forever, but I know it feels that way. 💔 When I can’t make any sense of this madness, I remind myself to trust in the Lord with all my heart, and lean NOT upon my own understanding. To acknowledge Him in all of my ways, and trust that (somehow!) He will make this path straight! Sometimes it’s hard to see the way out when we are deep in the valley, but He never loses sight of any of us, and He has his eye on your son at all times. Sending you love!💘
This is my story! Except my child was a daughter. And she went to Smith College, not Brown. She was valedictorian of her high school class of 650. She excelled in everything she did and was well liked and respected among her peers. The cult took over her life while she was away at college. She now lives as a man and I hear she is married to a woman. Not sure if biological or trans. Her dad and I did not affirm. We took her off of our medical insurance plan when she began testosterone (we received the EOB, which informed us). She betrayed our trust in her to graduate from this school of all women with her given name. I had all I could do not to burst out crying when I saw her chosen male name in the graduation program. It was a very dark time for her dad and me. It has been 13 years. We are still estranged and I still cry sometimes. It is still absolutely heartbreaking and devastating to have lost our daughter. But I no longer live in daily darkness. The loss will always be with me, but we are at peace with our decision to not affirm.
I hope you feel some comfort in hearing the shared experiences of other parents who are grieving like you are. Nobody knows the excrutiating pain like we do. Hugs and hope to you for the sense of peace that you deserve.
You should submit feedback and let parents of prospective students know how Brown University is brainwashing and pushing transgenderism on its students here: https://college.genspect.org/
I suspect you continue to love him with every ounce of your being. The mantle he’s hiding under is not him. Your love will remain once the mantle crumbles. ❤️
When you stayed quiet on “porn” you invited this madness. Karma. Your son is a porn addict and you basically co-signed it along with everyone else while boys withered and died.
Crimson, your comment about staying quiet seems to assume something that Broken Forever did not write. In any case, all the parents broken hearted by their loss of a child to transgenderism are sincerely grieving, and to say a parent INVITED this grief is false and cruel.
And it’s a safe assumption. You all stayed quiet.
It’s cruel but not false. We let them steal our boys from us and mind rspe them while we smiled and said oh well. You too. Where the hell is everyone on this crisis? How can a single person think trans is real?
Oh friend 🫂 sending a hug your way, and praying for God to comfort your broken heart💔
The biggest thing to me has been the personality change. I don’t think all of us have had the same amount of vitriol but for those of us that have it has been a complete shocker. My son truly was a sweet boy, but he, along with his brothers, seem to have lost all sense of respect, honor & decency. And all within a cloak of reasonable clarity & superior morality. For now, they seem to be doing ok, they are employed, but how long this will last, only time will tell. I wouldn’t say they are thriving. If they were, they’d let us in, even if we didn’t succumb to the language
Evil.
Our daughter was always sweet & gentle and she also underwent a 100% personality change and reinvented the past. The extra weird thing is that now - years in - her personality is almost completely back to normal but she is religiously applying cross sex hormones daily. This is someone who was always the gifted "absent minded professor" type who growing up could never remember to do much in the day to day world outside of her brilliant head.
I have never succumbed to the language. Not one inch. The problem is that the entire world around us did gaslight her.
This is interesting…her personality is back to normal? So she’s ’nice?’ You have a relationship without having to use the language?
We've been in it since something like 2017 or 2018. She underwent a complete personality change, thought we were jerks, and did not respond to her name. I would only use her name or an endearment (which was normal for us). Her mannerisms were unrecognizable to me. Things were very strained for a long time. She wasn't really speaking to us for a good part of high school.
More recently she is sweet and loving again. She doesn't seem to mind that we use her real name although I know that is not what she uses out in the world. I think she has matured somewhat and understands that we love her but disagree. She thinks she knows better and we read the wrong things. Much of the time when she is engaged with things that interest her she seems like her old self.
At the same time, she still believes in the cult/trans/doctors/that you take certain steps... I am upset that the Frankenstein Industrial Complex is not over yet and that she can even receive cross sex hormones with a tiny co-pay. We have held medicalization at bay for so long but she's begun. :-(
Wow…that’s so peculiar & also contrary to what I thought, that T makes you more aggressive & somewhat erratic. This must be very hard for you. It really is on them to stop isn’t it. Is she being cheered on?
Everything about all of this has been peculiar if you ask me - including the normalization of transexual "medicine". OK, long before that we could not believe that the high school was on board with the Ideology and called her "he". They only beamed and smiled as we crumbled.
No one seems to care outside of our underground substack sort of thing. I am blue in the face writing on these places. We are only at the point where maybe little children will not be chopped anymore - maybe?
She and the relationship healed a bit. But then she went ahead with the cross sex hormone gel anyway and she has not been doing it very long so I don't see a lot of effects yet.
"It really is on them to stop isn’t it." I guess?
Maybe it is on society to end this medical experiment that has no controls - where vulnerable young people are prepped in the education system? I don't even recognize our country sometimes.
"Is she being cheered on?" She has been cheered on for so long I don't think she knows another way? And, doctors inform her these days at one of these wonderful clinics that are so proud of their work. Hanging is too good for them (legal hanging after Nuremberg trials).
Nuremberg 2.0 IS coming and I believe people will be able to watch executions if they choose. Luke 17:2 says " It would be better for them to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around their neck than to cause one of these little ones to stumble". I actually handwrote a note and took it to the doctor's office who was prescribing my son's hormones and said something like "you have at least one doctor here who is either knowingly or unknowingly doing the devil's work"...and can't remember what I followed with but something about truth would eventually come out. It's not only this either.... "One nation under blackmail". A big part of the Jeffrey Epstein story is about blackmailing members of the government. I've seen so much as 98% of the US Government will fall once all is exposed. Things are heating up and I am hopeful that very soon all WILL be exposed and our world can heal! It is a global situation as we know. Makes my blood boil but those guilty of all of these atrocities will answer to the judge over all the earth! That being said we are told to pray for our enemies... SO much is happening. Do a search for "operation restore justice". 205 Child sex abuse offenders were arrested. Some of this is coming from our kids being targeted online which is why everything really exploded during covid when all kids were home on their computers :(! Julie Green on rumble did a great video today talking about a lot of this.
Oh my goodness so she really has the whole support network surrounding her. That makes me furious when they give you the big brave smile. As if to say, look, you can do it. I know it’s hard but you must. LIE just like we are. I guess I wanted to feel hopeful for you that she accepts your different opinion. My son has been no contact for years now with us. He spoke a few months ago to my husband, we hoped it might be a move forward to a compromise but he followed up by even stronger ultimatums, saying we blew our chance, we misgendered, blah blah blah. Unbelievable. We’ll make this movement collapse. I hope for your daughter before she goes any deeper.
That is what I was thinking too. Something about this does not jibe. We are not getting the whole story.
Hi Alexander. I responded to Anon. I am sure I have not laid out every detail and I am trying to understand our situation myself. If you have any insight that could help I am all ears. We no longer have the lever of "we will stop paying for college" if you self harm by "healthcare" system.
Maybe you are newer to the cult experience?
Never lose sight that
1) yes you're the sane one
2) he's telling you to f** off because he's f**d up in his mind. He doesn't look, talk and act like himself because that's not himself. His true self is not dead but dormant somewhere in a corner of his soul, awaiting his awakening to reality.
3) The death cult is terrified by the parent of the same self identifying sex (so mom for a son who's deluded into believing he's a girl) because you're the real thing. And your mere existence and presence threatens the whole charade.
4) it's far from over. He may be going deeper in the pit presently but it won't always be like that. As I keep repeating ad nauseum, the trans life is a long arduous and lonely journey. I was years into it before i saw the light. He may very well emerge from it. Don't lose hope.
5) you need to put yourself first. Take good care of you. Protect your heart. Do stuff that make you happy. You could do nothing to prevent him from being captured and you are not responsible to get him out. It won't happen until he's ready. Live your life as happy as you can, free from false sense of guilt and debilitating sorrow. It's not your fault he's trans. Your mistakes didn't make him trans. Otherwise all kids would be trans because all parents make mistakes. Choose joy. It's legit that your kid remains an important part in your heart but he doesn't have to be the beginning, end and center of your life
Emphasize “take care of yourself first”. Like the airplane instructions say, if you are traveling with a child and the oxygen masks deploy because plane is damaged, put your own oxygen on first so you will stay conscious to help your child.
Brilliant and insightful.
Also, its not how you mothered your child. Otherwise if you have more than one child they all would be trans.
Sorry this terrible thing has happened to you.
This ideology, this interconnecting set of ideas about gender, sex, transexuality, about parenting and parents and the role of the state, doctors, therapists, activists... all these ideas have been absorbed into the worldview of people of a liberal ideology, another set of interconnected ideas - including the that one should be open to new ideas, that tolerance is good, that what might seem whacky could be fine - ideas that used to say nothing specific about the aforementioned set of ideas. But the liberal set of ideas had no or little protection from the trans set of ideas. It turned out liberals didn't even know basic biology with much certainty. It turned out that many of us had such low self-esteem that if there was the threat we might be called 'transphobic' - a new word, but it sounded sort of racist - we would back down faced with any kind of insane idea. I guess we weren't quite as smart, or as strong or as virtuous as we thought we were.
Dear BrokeN : Yes our children are broken and only eyes of faith, hope, love, mercy, grace, and forgiveness can see thru to a different ending. I hate the makeup, costume getups etc. But I don't hate my son and you are struggling with giving into that rabbit hole! That is what evil wants and as soon as you see the battle against evil not your kid it will flip your paradigm. I sympathize with the anger and disappointment but in the word of the famous American lyric and song writer Johnny Mercer: "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative, latch on to the affirmative and don't mess with Mr. Inbetween. Spread joy up to the maximum, bring gloom down to the minimum, have faith or pandemonium is libel to walk upon the scene." Start turning your situation over to God and see with new eyes this this devilish situation can be redeemed for those who turn with their whole heart to the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. This is the higher narrow path and I highly recommended you to go to the Father of us all to heal your broken heart which is of great value to God.
This is so true...and what someone else said about many people we don't even know are praying for our kids. It wasn't long after I truly surrendered and believed that it was not my fault, but the devil at work to steal kill and destroy in any and every way he could, that my son was delivered from this cult.
Below are the lyrics my son created ad lib in a friend's studio and He called the video "Burn in hell Jezebel". I literally listened to all of his other lyrics on his YouTube channel to try to understand what he was thinking. I believe he used his friend's studio as a therapy session. Praise God he is no longer doing to himself what he was doing but he is still fighting other things (as we all are in some way I suppose). I do believe God is at work in all of our kids, and HE has big plans for ALL of them (and us)!
Meadows burning
The sun is shining while it's dropping
I know that it's hard to cope
with what no one could ever really be stopping
It's inevitable the Father's plan this
self fulfilling prophecy
Children of the stars
Blown into being by the breath of a loving God
But the anger has boiled to the top
And I don't think it could ever really be stopped
All This pain has been too much to watch
And to those dozen sets of eyes I say I'm sorry
If I was the last that makes me the first
And I know that it all really hurts
But at least I'm here, suffering along side you
While I call down the heavens
Someone's got to do it no one else will like apologize
and actually have a place
and actually know thy mistakes
Oh Jezebel you ***** whore,
Burn in hell forevermore
Soft tunes are important
the juxtaposition keeps everything moving while I
fill this portent with venom
and it goes into this syringe
that is audibly injected into the bellies
of the serpent...
and every evil that would bring this pain and you don't deserve it.
Hi Brenda : Thanks for your response to my post. The statement that : "It wasn't long after I truly surrendered and believed that it was not my fault, but the devil at work to steal kill and destroy in any and every way he could, that my son was delivered from this cult." It doesn't quite square with what I posited in my post. Whether we are guilty as parents seems counter productive to claim. That is not the process I went through or am going thru. I admit my many mistakes before God and some could have contributed to tearing down of protection for him against the wiles of the devil ....we as co sinners in this world do contribute to the whole mess. You have hit upon what I think is this situations blind spot for us as parents. What I said was that I wasn't going to fight on the side of the evil originating in my child but he has agreed to this foolishness so I must pray the battle on the side of the origin so that it can be pulled down in hopes of a ray of God's grace can recapture my son and all the sons and daughters who we pray for. We want God to give us all new sight and a new heart and to take away our heart of stone and replace it with a heart of tender flesh. I was responding to the original post that this poor parent laments a temptation to toss the relationship away. That would just add fuel to the fire...it's a flight mechinism that we all can fall prey to in our natural state ...but not our new born again spiritual identity. In that newness of Spirit we have mercy, grace, forgiveness and hope. We must confess where God shows us how we have contributed to the mess we are in and become better ambassadors of Christ. I know that's another diatribe and I hope I don't offend.
I probably should have clarified…or maybe I misunderstood..but by what I said I should have gone on to say that I was changing the way I dealt with it knowing that so much of this is just the devil at work..blaming myself was only keeping me from fighting spiritually because we are absolutely I believe in a very difficult spiritual battle…but we have the power to “trample on serpents and scorpions” so I knew then that I needed to change my strategy in fighting the lie that my son had somehow been brainwashed to believe. I prayed, others prayed, and God delivered him not only from the prescriptions he was injecting but also from the cutting that he had been doing for a very long time! There is SO much behind all
This…If you are familiar with rumble, Julie Green had a very encouraging word today…giving some insight into how we got here. I do believe the end to this is near!🙏🙏🙏
Thanks be to God for your sons deliverance and may others be encouraged by this miracle. By the way that trample of serpents " from Luke 10:19 was to the disciples for that mission and their future missions as apostles and not a general principal of all believers in Jesus. Also your son and my son have been "brainwashed" by the prince of the power of the air" . Satan in his schemes is very clever as an "idea" contagion maker. Trans is one of his latest schemes that he has been working on since the garden: "Did God really say?" Same deception. He will use the slightest sin and build a system on it. The world, the flesh and the devil and the lust of the eyes, the lust of the flesh and the pride of life are the battleground of life on earth. Those are also the battles that we have to put on the full armour of God and as it says in 2 Corn. 10: 5: "casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ." Having done all we need to stand. I pray that you are firmly fixed and standing against all the onslaughts of the enemies that wage against our souls and the should of our children. Bless you and your son and may the victories keep coming! To the glory of God.