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Suzie Homemaker's avatar

I have screamed at Him, and He held space for me to fall apart. He loves us enough to allow it, so go ahead and scream when you need to. I have been so hurt, so angry, so depressed by our estrangement, I look ten years older (in a year’s time) from the ordeal. It threw me headlong into menopause immediately, and all sorts of health issues came to the surface to trouble me. I feel as though I’ve been at war, when all I ever wanted was peace.

Now I have it, though the battle rages on around me. I am not a part of it anymore, I’m merely a survivor of it. We are still estranged, but my mind doesn’t dwell in the moment, it’s focused entirely on eternity. And God’s plans for our children are bigger than our own. ❤️

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Dionne leitschuh's avatar

Thank you for sharing, When I feel on the brink of going down the path of blaming myself and feeling like a failure, I do turn to God , I cry a lot of tears and the pain is unbearable at times, God is the only thing that can get me through it. I am so happy that you have been able to move forward, it’s not easy, I’m trying to do that so I can enjoy what time I have left here on this planet .

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Suzie Homemaker's avatar

Healing is a journey, not a destination. Be gentle with yourself, compassionate, and kind. Give yourself space and time to process it all. It’s a lot to navigate, but I do believe that with faith, the road is made a little smoother. Sending you love! ❤️

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Dionne leitschuh's avatar

Thank you so much for your kind words of support ❤️

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