It is just a marble notebook less than $1.00 at Walmart. When I lay down at night, I can't sleep as my daughter fills my head, so I get up and write everything thing that I'm thinking into the notebook. It tends to be all the things that I'd say to my daughter if she wasn't estranging me. Sometimes I treat it as a letter. Other times, ho…
It is just a marble notebook less than $1.00 at Walmart. When I lay down at night, I can't sleep as my daughter fills my head, so I get up and write everything thing that I'm thinking into the notebook. It tends to be all the things that I'd say to my daughter if she wasn't estranging me. Sometimes I treat it as a letter. Other times, honestly I'm so angry and I write that too. I write my fears, my love and all the remembrances of happy shared moments. It is for me. It allows me to vent, to rage, to remember, to express my fears, warnings, reason, love, regrets. It allows me to untangle her accusations, her arguments her misinterpretations, In this moment when I am denied the ability to talk to her, I can say the things that I would say to her and the things that I would never say to her. It allows me to get thoughts off my chest and our of my mind.
It is just a marble notebook less than $1.00 at Walmart. When I lay down at night, I can't sleep as my daughter fills my head, so I get up and write everything thing that I'm thinking into the notebook. It tends to be all the things that I'd say to my daughter if she wasn't estranging me. Sometimes I treat it as a letter. Other times, honestly I'm so angry and I write that too. I write my fears, my love and all the remembrances of happy shared moments. It is for me. It allows me to vent, to rage, to remember, to express my fears, warnings, reason, love, regrets. It allows me to untangle her accusations, her arguments her misinterpretations, In this moment when I am denied the ability to talk to her, I can say the things that I would say to her and the things that I would never say to her. It allows me to get thoughts off my chest and our of my mind.
Beautifully expressed.