Holding my breath… till my daughter’s home; five long years ago, she left. Choked by worry – I’m never free; of all joy I am bereft. If by breathing I’ve offended the gentle balance of her heart, I’ll faint before she feels estranged; grieving is a subtle art. Desperate to see the child I once knew, crying at the slightest hint she won’t come home till the red moon shines; I can’t function till love wins. Longing, aching, dying, till her heart comes back home to our embrace; her shell dwells here, the one whose parents yearned to glimpse her precious face. Uncuff my world; my wings have been clipped. Our fates are tightly intertwined. Then I’ll exhale, drink in sweet relief, and reclaim my splintered mind.
I'm sorry for your pain. I hope you find a way to reclaim some of what your one life can offer. I am managing to do this more despite the deep sadness and other difficult feelings after my son in the trans abyss broke my heart, himself, and his family. The problem with vulnerable young people in the trans cult is that they love a destructive fantasy more than the parents who actually love them. It's so very twisted.
Well put. I really feel this: "The problem with vulnerable young people in the trans cult is that they love a destructive fantasy more than the parents who actually love them."
For anyone who has not read it yet, Eyes Open recently shared the below from Genspect which explains alot:
"Transgender Identification as an Extreme Overvalued Belief
...The result is chillingly predictable: exposure to extreme ideas, reinforcement by those in the culture or subculture, and then action. For some, the action is violence against others. For others, it is violence against their own bodies—castration, mastectomy, phalloplasty."
...Which is why today, Genspect is officially calling for the re-psychopathologization of transgender identities, through the lens of the extreme overvalued belief. Not to stigmatize. Not to marginalize. But to restore clarity and compassion.
Because this IS a pathological condition—an all-consuming fixation that demands careful psychiatric intervention."
From "The Battle Upstream: Challenging the false belief causing medical harm"
Mia Hughes' speech from The Bigger Picture Conference 2025
I pray that one day this war on children will stop. Let the survivors return home to parents. May God relieve families from their suffering. For those who have perished, may we have a memorial inscribed with their true names so that we never forget them. For the perpetrators who ruined our children, God’s judgement shall come down.
Wow! You wrote my and my wife’s heart. Our daughter has moved 800 miles away, started testosterone immediately, then had her breasts removed (Sorry, I won’t use the accepted term of top surgery!). We long for the day when she returns to realize her true self, who God created her to be. We know when she comes back, it will be different, as Jacob in the Bible, with a limp from wrestling with God. Until that day, we ache, we groan, we find it hard to look at photos. Yet, we hold on to our faith and the hope of her return.
I’m glad my poetry resonated with you. I’m so very sorry that your child has harmed herself in this way. It is really an evil lie, and I pray that she will return home like the prodigal son.
I feel the grief in this. The problem is....if your daughter has been captured by the "trans" ideology, she may undergo permanent medical physical changes. I, of course, don't know her and don't know to what extent she has been captured. If the capture is extreme, however, and extremely unfortunately, the person who returns home to you, if she returns, will be more medical experiment than the daughter you remember.
I have gone through a lot of grief myself and say this with the most love I can have for you and your situation: Sometimes the best thing we can do for our own heart's protection is to steel it for a very unfavorable reality. Part of the problem with "trans" ideology capture is the refusal to see the reality of biological sex. We cannot mimic this by not seeing the reality of permanent medical changes if that is what she has undergone.
My daughter has no breasts. She no longer considers herself ‘trans.’ These people are monsters. I remember being 18 and stupid but never could I have imagined the world fall so apart that age 18 means what it does today - the mutilation of sexed bodies.
Mothers Grim....this I felt: "never could I have imagined the world fall so apart that age 18 means what it does today - the mutilation of sexed bodies".
It's awful. Physical mutilation of healthy bodies is abhorrent. And the medical industry cogs that do it are either completely detached or sadistic, maybe a combination.
Our bodies are sacred. And there are bio-feedback body loops that are devastated when healthy body parts are removed.
I am so sorry for YOU also Mothers Grim because this must be so hard to watch, after birthing her. At least she no longer considers herself "trans", but how it has costed.
I spoke about how the pharmaceutical industry targets girls most recently in this Video if you want to watch it. I just started sharing the Link recently:
Hi Joanna. I totally understand what you’re saying. De Nile ain’t just a river in Egypt. I guess we were “fortunate” that our daughter came out at age 12 and she’s still under our care and insurance. We’re not guaranteed great results even if we are awesome parents. My counselor did tell me I need to stop hyper fixating on things I don’t control.
Yes, and we have to be careful about the SCHOOLS. Some schools, especially in NYC where I am, heavily are indoctrinating these kids into "trans" ideology, which is why there is such an uptick in kids thinking they are "born in the wrong body". Girls are especially hard hit.
I understand. I composed a piano piece, My Prayer for You, the night we found out what are son was doing. You can find it on Spotify, iTunes, or YouTube music.
I'm sorry for your pain. I hope you find a way to reclaim some of what your one life can offer. I am managing to do this more despite the deep sadness and other difficult feelings after my son in the trans abyss broke my heart, himself, and his family. The problem with vulnerable young people in the trans cult is that they love a destructive fantasy more than the parents who actually love them. It's so very twisted.
It’s heartbreaking 💔
Well put. I really feel this: "The problem with vulnerable young people in the trans cult is that they love a destructive fantasy more than the parents who actually love them."
For anyone who has not read it yet, Eyes Open recently shared the below from Genspect which explains alot:
"Transgender Identification as an Extreme Overvalued Belief
...The result is chillingly predictable: exposure to extreme ideas, reinforcement by those in the culture or subculture, and then action. For some, the action is violence against others. For others, it is violence against their own bodies—castration, mastectomy, phalloplasty."
...Which is why today, Genspect is officially calling for the re-psychopathologization of transgender identities, through the lens of the extreme overvalued belief. Not to stigmatize. Not to marginalize. But to restore clarity and compassion.
Because this IS a pathological condition—an all-consuming fixation that demands careful psychiatric intervention."
From "The Battle Upstream: Challenging the false belief causing medical harm"
Mia Hughes' speech from The Bigger Picture Conference 2025
Genspect Oct 08, 2025
https://genspect.substack.com/p/the-battle-upstream-challenging-the
I pray that one day this war on children will stop. Let the survivors return home to parents. May God relieve families from their suffering. For those who have perished, may we have a memorial inscribed with their true names so that we never forget them. For the perpetrators who ruined our children, God’s judgement shall come down.
Me too. Those who lead little ones astray would be better off with millstones tied around their necks.
share your pain and grief every minute of 6 years
I have traveled your path, my tears are your tears. Yes, let us hold tight to hope that love wins ❤️.
Thanks. I will ♥️
Wow! You wrote my and my wife’s heart. Our daughter has moved 800 miles away, started testosterone immediately, then had her breasts removed (Sorry, I won’t use the accepted term of top surgery!). We long for the day when she returns to realize her true self, who God created her to be. We know when she comes back, it will be different, as Jacob in the Bible, with a limp from wrestling with God. Until that day, we ache, we groan, we find it hard to look at photos. Yet, we hold on to our faith and the hope of her return.
I’m glad my poetry resonated with you. I’m so very sorry that your child has harmed herself in this way. It is really an evil lie, and I pray that she will return home like the prodigal son.
Yes, I feel your pain.
Our grief!
🥲🙏
Absolutely beautiful and searing. Holding you and your precious daughter in my prayers.
Thank you Emily. She’s 17 and her name is Linnea. She now hates her name and goes by Lee.
I will pray for Linnea and you.
I feel the grief in this. The problem is....if your daughter has been captured by the "trans" ideology, she may undergo permanent medical physical changes. I, of course, don't know her and don't know to what extent she has been captured. If the capture is extreme, however, and extremely unfortunately, the person who returns home to you, if she returns, will be more medical experiment than the daughter you remember.
I have gone through a lot of grief myself and say this with the most love I can have for you and your situation: Sometimes the best thing we can do for our own heart's protection is to steel it for a very unfavorable reality. Part of the problem with "trans" ideology capture is the refusal to see the reality of biological sex. We cannot mimic this by not seeing the reality of permanent medical changes if that is what she has undergone.
My daughter has no breasts. She no longer considers herself ‘trans.’ These people are monsters. I remember being 18 and stupid but never could I have imagined the world fall so apart that age 18 means what it does today - the mutilation of sexed bodies.
Mothers Grim....this I felt: "never could I have imagined the world fall so apart that age 18 means what it does today - the mutilation of sexed bodies".
It's awful. Physical mutilation of healthy bodies is abhorrent. And the medical industry cogs that do it are either completely detached or sadistic, maybe a combination.
Our bodies are sacred. And there are bio-feedback body loops that are devastated when healthy body parts are removed.
I am so sorry for YOU also Mothers Grim because this must be so hard to watch, after birthing her. At least she no longer considers herself "trans", but how it has costed.
I spoke about how the pharmaceutical industry targets girls most recently in this Video if you want to watch it. I just started sharing the Link recently:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EluKBYxKrsM
Yes, our bodies are sacred!
And your little speech was awesome! We are truly a society of cowards. May your presence among the fearful guide others to join in truth.
Thank you so much, Mothers Grim. Your words uplift me today.
Hi Joanna. I totally understand what you’re saying. De Nile ain’t just a river in Egypt. I guess we were “fortunate” that our daughter came out at age 12 and she’s still under our care and insurance. We’re not guaranteed great results even if we are awesome parents. My counselor did tell me I need to stop hyper fixating on things I don’t control.
Hi Joy,
Yes, and we have to be careful about the SCHOOLS. Some schools, especially in NYC where I am, heavily are indoctrinating these kids into "trans" ideology, which is why there is such an uptick in kids thinking they are "born in the wrong body". Girls are especially hard hit.
I found out my estranged son has been preyed on by surgeons There are no words for this grief.
There should exist a uniquely terrible Circle of Hades for the predators.
"Predators" is right. Predators for the profit from the medical/surgical industry which preys upon people, their unsuspecting "patients".
🥲
Ohhh, my heart. I am so sorry. Beautiful.
I hope for you. For you both.
Thank you. My daughter has made progress since I wrote this two years ago.
Beautiful!❤️
I feel your pain.
A greif like no other. X
Thanks so much for this beautiful poem. Especially the line about love winning!! God Bless your travels in this pain that so many of us share.
Thank you, Colleen. God continues to bless me and give me hope.
Suffering, less poetically, with you.
Thank you for this precious offering that gives expression to our grief.
My pleasure. I find it helps me process.
I understand. I composed a piano piece, My Prayer for You, the night we found out what are son was doing. You can find it on Spotify, iTunes, or YouTube music.
🥲🙏