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Everyone with boys : https://youtu.be/AaiicS2HXW4?feature=shared

Very well done. Breaks your heart but also gives hope.

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Yesterday evening I went to a poetry reading at a local college. I was horrified to see a young man dressed up as a woman. He looked to be about six feet three inches tall, and large-boned. He must taking estrogen because he has breasts big enough to need a bra. His voice was strange -- very much like the voices of young women who have taken testosterone and now "de-transed." He was wearing a flowered sundress and knee-high socks. He will never, ever be able to "pass."

Honestly, I feel our "trans" children have been hypnotized. How can this young man look in a mirror, or see his reflection in a large window, and not see how bizarre he looks, how grotesque?

How can we break the trances our kids are living in? How can we wake them up to reality? I've heard some detransitioners talk about having a sudden realization that "This was all a huge mistake!" I heard one mtf detransitioner say that he realized this as soon as he woke up in the recovery room after his bottom surgery. How horrible that must have been!

I want my child to wake up before she does anything irreversible. I want her to realize how futile it is to try to become male when she was born female. But I'm afraid that if she realizes that, she'll commit suicide...

We parents are living in dreadful double-binds.

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Kayla, please go to the Therapy First website. It’s an international organization of mental health clinicians who practice psychotherapy (not automatic “gender affirming care”).

Therapyfirst.org

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..yes, & no one can hurt you like your own flesh & blood

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I think if we want to help create a world where gender-nonconforming people don’t feel the urge to transition, we need to not be horrified by men in dresses. It’s one thing to oppose medical transition, or being forced to say that men are women, but the simple fact of a man wearing a dress shouldn’t be something horrific.

Knee socks sound ugly, though.

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The way this thing contorts a parent's love is the worst part.

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Heartbreaking. May your future be the best possible. May your family heal and grow close again.

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It does feel like the person they chose to become is the murderer of our own beloved. It's exactly how I feel.

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I found this link on the Patriot Post

Quick Path to Medical License in Cali:

California lawmakers are pushing a bill that would expedite medical licensing in the Golden State "for an applicant who demonstrates that they intend to provide gender-affirming health care and gender-affirming mental health care." Under the deceptive euphemism "gender-affirming care," medical professionals who engage in distributing puberty blockers, cross-sex hormones, or mutilation surgeries would qualify for expedited medical licensing by the state medical board. This flies in the face of new studies out of Europe and particularly the United Kingdom, which show that so-called "gender-affirming care" is anything but helpful and, indeed, is dangerous to children. As Stanley Goldfarb, chairman of Do No Harm, observes, "The problem is that [California lawmakers are] doing backflips to make it easier and easier for children to get these treatments" when they should be making it harder. This is all about pushing a radical ideology and political agenda over and against sound medical ethics and scientific evidence.

https://freebeacon.com/california/california-dems-want-to-fast-track-medical-licenses-for-applicants-who-will-provide-gender-affirming-care/

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You brought me to tears 😢 I hope your son comes back soon ❤️

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I see you. Sending you love and support.

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This brings up so much for me! My much longed for and tried for second child (after 3 miscarriages and 3 unsuccessful rounds of IVF then miracle of miracles perfect you!) Knowing and seeing you in my womb in (3D no less) a perfect baby girl! So you see no matter how you see yourself at the moment, no matter how many Tik Tokkers or Reddittors or You Tubers try to tell you otherwise or convince you otherwise, I know you because I’ve always known you and you are the same girl I saw growing inside me and my beautiful one you cannot change that! Love, Mumx

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I'm Jewish but I did read the Gospels once. And I got to say. the parable of the prodigal son is a good one. A very good one.

And I think of it a lot when I read these messages.

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Dearest Parent of "Hon",

Sending you much love.

I can only imagine what my grandchildren look like now.

Asking God for reality to come home to our beloveds.

We will be here waiting.

Love, Indio

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Beautiful and heartbreaking 💔

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Maybe one small bit of hope can be gleaned from knowing it likely won't be that hard for your son to pass as male when he detransitions, as he likely one day will. Unlike all the young women whose voices will never sound female again and who may always have facial hair. But I know it's a terrible, miserable situation for all parents, whatever sex their children.

You might want to check the YTer Ray Williams,who detransitioner a year ago after several years on E.

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Ritchie (https://substack.com/@tullipr) is another remarkable mtf detransitioner who referred me to this group. He is very open about his journey.

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Thank you for that mention. I’m very eager to see more mtf detrans stories…Sasha Bailey (uk) is another very articulate young man speaking out about transmaxing and others aspects going on

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https://youtu.be/AaiicS2HXW4?feature=shared

Amazing short documentary. Lost Boys

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May 30·edited May 30

I sat down earlier this week with my daughter who is ftm taking testosterone. I asked if I could just speak openly without her getting mad at my words. She agreed. I told her that I am afraid for her. She scrunched up her face and asked why. I told her that I have researched so much about females taking testosterone and all of the potential problems. I told her that she was killing her ovaries and uterus, that essentially she was throwing herself into menopause at the age of 18. She looked surprised, obviously no one had told her that would happen. I told her that I was afraid she was harming her beautiful body and one day she might regret it. She told me that would be her problem to live with then. I agreed with her, it would be her life to live not mine. But as her mother, an intelligent person who loved her more than anyone else, I was afraid for her. I asked if there was possibly another way. She wasn't sure. I told her that she needed to accept and love herself first before she started to make permanent changes. I asked that we keep the lines of communication open between us to talk freely with no judgement. She agreed. I asked that when she was ready to speak to me about how this all came about, I was ready to listen without interruption. She shook her head in agreement, but didn't commit to when that might happen. I gave her a hug and told her I loved her. We can not give up trying to get through to them. Maybe she will ponder on my words and they may enter doubt into her mind.

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May 30·edited May 30

That sounds really good. Have you read or heard Elaine Miller talking about this? She tweeted just the other day about her " trans men" patients' vaginal and bladder problems and early menopause and so on. She's a Scottish pelvic physiotherapist and also does a stand-up comedy routine. She's such a brilliant communicator and funny. Your daughter just *might* get some good information if you can get her to listen to some Elaine. Just a long shot. I know what we're up against. My son never listened to anything from me and now has cut himself off completely.

Here is a link to one interview.

https://x.com/DetransWomanAus/status/1795429116336107861

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Sounds like such a great conversation. It is clear that your daughter loves you and values your input. I hope the seeds you planted will grow and not get trampled by the affirming herd. Hugs.

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I’m glad you were able to have that conversation. You have now done your best.

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Very moving. I am sorry that this is your reality. None of us should have to live through this. I hope that your son will come back to you.

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