Culture of Death

I was moved to tears watching the body cam footage of the police respond to the active shooter at the school in Nashville yesterday. It reminded me of my child’s small school and the hallways… how easily this could have happened at any school. I imagined the horror and terror the little children and teachers must have felt while this was happening… the precious children and staff who were brutally massacred in a matter of minutes. How utterly senseless and sad as I watched the cops take down the shooter and to see her body laying there. I had a pit in my stomach as I cried and thought, could that shooter be any of our kids???? I am so grieved.

The TG culture is a culture of death.

Dead name

Dead past

Dead history

Dead family

Dead to anyone who opposes you

Dead self

The slow murder of our loved ones and their families… and people in their wake.

Murder is an act of hate… we can even murder in our heart when we hate someone.

The level of hatred that is being propagated in this ideology is undeniable. The hatred most of us feel not only from our culture, but from our own families and even our own children who have elevated transgender ideology to the highest religion in the land—with absolute allegiance or die attitude. This transgender religion that has created the most narcissistic legalistic Pharisees, who spew hatred if one dares to even show concern, question, disagree, or try to logically debate…

Fact: 42% of those who identify as Transgender have attempted suicide… Even in the most affirming cultures!

Not only does gender ideology fail to provide any solutions for mental health, it creates even more problems. Study after study shows that depression and suicide is HIGHER after transition than before. This is one reason why other countries in Europe and Netherlands are backing away from “affirmation only care”. Too bad the US is full steam ahead in the wrong direction. Just look at how news agencies are stumbling to address the shooter by the correct self-identified pronoun rather than opening up a dialog on the mental health struggles that undoubtedly contributed to this week’s shooting in Nashville.

Is my daughter on this same tragic path? Are other’s daughters?

My daughter was once a loving, sensitive, ray of sunshine and such a cuddle bug. That laughed easily and so full of joy. That was the first to hop in my lap or grab my hand even in public. That after a youth retreat, came home and washed my feet. That was so sensitive and had a bleeding heart for anyone or any animal that was treated unfairly or cruelly. My child that wrote me sweet letters of love and won a necklace for Mother’s Day for a poem she wrote about me.

Now as a young adult, going into her 3rd year of “transitioning”… she has slowly, methodically, coldly detached from me. Now, I feel nothing but indifference, resentment, and rejection from her. Once so close to her family that loves her, many of them have felt that as well.

The moment I saw her changing a few years ago, I grew concerned… as she slowly withdrew, sucked into her phone and screens despite my many efforts to pull her away. She slowly grew sullen and withdrawn and depressed, and started to “socially transition” (I had no clue what that all was then), growing out body hair, wearing masculine clothes, wearing men’s body products, changing her room, cutting off her hair, binding her breasts, etc.

As I saw this happening before my eyes, I grew very concerned. I tried hard to talk to her, to reach out, to get her counseling, to get her off the screens and into new schools and more healthy peer groups. But then covid hit, and she had to be “online’ for school. What little socialization she had drifted away, and her propagandized online world grew bigger to fill the space. The more I tried, the more she pulled away.

When I was able to address her more undeniable effort to look like a boy, one of the first things I said to her was that I was so concerned that in her efforts to be like a boy, she was denying her femininity and herself. That this was a form of self-loathing and self-hatred. I know now it’s part of this culture of death. It is a spirit of suicide that wants to kill and destroy.

Now what I hear from her is:

Don’t use my dead name

Don’t talk about my “dead” history

Don’t talk about my “dead” self

Don’t show me pictures of my childhood

Don’t talk about the past or share memories

Don’t hug me without asking

Don’t expect me to say I love you when you tell me you love me.

Death, death, death….

The same spirit of death that convinces kids they are worthless, that their lives don’t matter, to self-harm and attempt suicide. The same spirit of death that lies to kids, drives them to addictions, risky behavior, self-harm/mutilation and destruction.

What my daughter was doing to herself was deadly. It was a self-hatred fueled by addictions—to screens and her online world, her peers and this ideology, to transitioning, to affirmation and “acceptance”. She insisted on being someone different at all costs, even to the point of self-harm and mutilation that we know is part and parcel of gender ideology and transition—the breast binding that causes physical injury and permanent damage to breasts and back/spine, the “tucking’ for boys, the cutting up and mutilation of their perfectly healthy bodies with all these surgeries, the lifelong injections of hormones into their precious bodies… We know that all of this has irreversible long term effects and increases in stroke, cancer, bone loss, heart disease, and much more, including sterilization.

On top of all this, these “treatments” have disastrous effects on mental health. In addition to these gross dosages of hormones, these kids are usually also fed a steady diet of “meds” to help their anxiety and depression (made worse by the “help” of these therapists and doctors) of which have the very side effects of psychosis and suicide!  I was just talking to a young woman in her early 20s who had to get off Prozac (taken for depression) because of the sudden spiral into suicide idealization she suddenly found herself in. It scared her so badly and she knew without a doubt the thoughts she was thinking were not hers and nothing she’s ever thought before, she quit cold turkey.

I personally know of another young woman who decided to transition and use testosterone. She became incredibly violent and mentally unstable to the point her partner had to obtain a restraining order against her. I know from another friend that her daughter is getting FREE testosterone and “affirmation/transition therapy” from her public university in the south. Since starting this “care“ by a “team of professionals“ last August (including starting testosterone & changing her “meds”) by Christmas, she had a nervous break down… failed her classes, almost lost her scholarship and lost her job. Literally could not get out of bed and had to take to take a semester off from school.

What saddens me and I think about as in the case of this tragic school shooting is that, perhaps like this confused girl, and so many others, beyond mental and emotional illnesses that are NOT being addressed, a whole new brand of psychosis is being sold as the “solution” to their problems by every institution around. I feel that my daughter is traveling down a road of mental illness, anxiety, depression. I pray to God for her and so many others that it doesn’t lead to suicidal or homicidal idealization as I feared it may have for this young woman who shot up a school with an intent on dying that day.  Lord, have mercy.