I cry anywhere I can be alone or where no one can see me, and in places where I never cried before. When I weed our vegetable garden in the warm sun, I think of how much Ricky might love a slice of the juicy watermelon we are growing. And I weep. As I keep my hands busy building things around the house, I pause between power drill spins to sob. When I go out for my jog, I occasionally choke up between breaths. On breaks while working, I stand, stretch, and snivel. On long trips, while I drive and my wife dozes off, I tear up.
My son is in the beginning of all this… he’s an adult and lives in another state attending school. He still talks to me mostly through text messages… he knows I don’t agree with it. I’m terrified of this future. Praying is all I do.. all I feel I can do.
Thank you for writing this and sharing. I join you praying for Ricky, for my son who is traveling the same road, and for all our prodigals. When we’re weary, we go back and pray again. When we’re frustrated, we go back and pray again. When we’re hopeful, when we’re hopeless, when our minds cannot conceive what in the world is going on… we will pray again. But I want to act and stand up against this, too.
All of these glimpses into the lives of the parents and siblings left in the wake of this social contagion are heartbreaking, and yours really got to me. I only know one thing: God loves children, and he does not forget. And as horrific as this, and every other story told by others are, I rest in the knowledge that God is still in control. He sees the damage that has been done, and He does not forget. I pray fervently that he will deliver these kids from this cult that is from the pit of hell. I pray that he will remove the scales from their ayea and that they will become a mighty force for Him and to bring sanity back to the world. I pray that the stench of the sin that doctors and psychiatrists are perpetuating will rouse God's holy anger at the destruction to those he made in His image.
I’m relatively new to this site and I read this when it showed up in my email this morning. It’s now almost 4 pm on the west coast and I have been thinking about this all day. It is so heartbreaking. I also have an adult son caught up in the cult but he still has contact with us and I am thankful for that. He lives in a different state and my biggest fears are the next steps. I pray he snaps out of it before he does any surgical damage. Hormones for the last 3-4 years have already done damage but I lose sleep about him wanting to take it further. I am so sorry for you and your wife and all you’ve been through. You should be enjoying the golden years on the beach with your family instead of the constant sadness that all of this is causing you both. ❤️🩹
Hi, thanks for this post. I am recovering from being affected by medical transition. It is a delusional and evil cult indeed. I have a long testimony I may share one day, with Gods help. I am so very sorry about your son Ricky. I will be praying for him to return home to you and Jesus. Nothing is too difficult or impossible for God. There is about 70 detransitioners showing up in Washington DC next week, coming from all different parts of the world. If you check of Genspect and Stella O Malley on YouTube and on Substack you will see more details. She is an Irish psychiatrist fighting against the trans ideology and has done some fantastic work with those affected by this madness. God bless.
It's been 20 years since my trans then-H left us in 2006. I didn't want to know the details of his life of isolation and confusion after castration. I only watched him from afar. During our "marriage" he had taunted me 24/7 so I was psychologically tortured. And on top of that he gas-lit me: if I showed any sign of anger at his wild and self-destructive behaviour he would taunt me: "You need an anger-management course". For 10 years before he left us I kept my anger under my control. I never allowed him to "flip me over". And then he left.
He died by suicide 4 years ago, in April 2022. RIP. The only peace he had for decades.
I blame the psychiatrists, the surgeon who castrated him, the Labour Government who passed the "Gender" "Recognition" Act in 2004 and gave a semblance of "normality" to his mutilation and suffering. He had been a deeply psychologically disturbed man, but I didn't know. No one knew except one independent Consultant Psychiatrist who actually helped me, a bit, to just ask the right questions. Whatever was the cause of his descent into insanity (possibly childhood trauma) it seems that no doctor wanted to inquire while he was alive, by taking a psychiatric history and helping him to face his pain. No. None of the "experts" cared at all.
We are living in an upside-down age. These abominable stories ARE coming to the surface. Good people ARE listening, especially in my country, Britain, which is "TERF Island". There WILL be a reckoning for the lazy and destructive medics and the politicians.
This is my mission. I work on it every day. I Tweet: @STranswidows (for Scientist Transwidows).
I weep for you and your son. I pray that he sees the errors that he had committed and the pain that he has inflicted on you and his mother. If he gets bored and wants to find out why he feels THEN there is a chance he could recover. Just a chance.
The sadness and tragedy of this on so many levels is almost overwhelming. I’m so sorry this has happened to you and to your son. I feel like even though he has openly chosen this path, he was led down the path while he was still a child and I pray (literally) that God will take that into consideration, and extend his everlasting mercy to him.
Telling your story is absolutely necessary to help other parents see the devastating consequences that lie at the end of the gender road and do anything and everything possible to get their children off it. Thank you for sharing 💕
Just nearly speechless! Interesting to me that you wrote that earlier piece the same year my daughter came to the conclusion that she too was "trans". All of the earlier talking points were pasted into an email demanding I not employ my typical approach of "questioning everything" and instead-requesting that I trust her in making this "long thought out decision" (3-5 yrs from a leftist college indoctrination) even tho she has "doubts" she didn't need mine now since she had made up her mind. 3 months later surgery occurred and I too have been devastated ever since.
She also went the "go fund me" outlet- led by the confused Girlfriend (they friend) who was the first to use and then discard T. Now 31 and fully an intact female -still calls herself Trans and offers body work services to other "trans folx". She calls my daughter HE and had said to me- "it's a mastectomy- omg what is the big deal?" I wanted to punch her lights out but she felt it and left the area.. How can two brilliant, smart, confident young women have bought into such false beliefs? I'll save it for another story...
Today - years later girlfriend has the gall to call me her adopted mom.. "Fuck off" is all I can think..but I bite my tongue and give her the minimum hug.. I'll spare everyone the rest as there is nothing unique to tell.
My question tho for you - is when did that quoted scientific information come forward and where is the original source? Very curious as I had not seen that specific info.
Thank you for sharing such a well written, heartfelt story and truth.. I can only hope these stories at some point get published in some way on MSM..
I too stand with you. What a horrendous and almost unbelievable experience for us all..
As a former lifelong Democrat, 100% of this trans plague can be attributed to Democrats and Democrats alone. I finally switched parties years ago when I saw them alone pushing this insanity. Democrats and their elite billionaire cronies are also the ones pushing for depopulation. I’m sure it’s a complete coincidence that all of our institutions schools, hospitals and government are simultaneously pushing autistic teenagers and young adults to become their “ true selves” through sterilization using either chemical or medical methods. The Rothschilds and Schwab’s of the world are surely quite pleased with this. You both sound like wonderful parents, you were let down by society and I am so sorry for that. I pray your son will one day come out of this and back to you. If any of you have lost a child to this cult, please stop voting Democrat. If you cannot do this, than I’m sorry, but you’ve lost the right to be outraged on the topic.
Thanks you for sharing your life story. I can so relate to you and your family. I am a parent and have my son in this cult too. I should share my story like you because it’s so similar. I pray also for this nightmare to be over. Keep the faith.
I'm gutted by this and for what your family has been through.
The number of times that other adults in his life could have intervened to right side your child's ship, to show him another way, to get him help - but instead pushed this forward, illustrates how pervasive and cancerous this ideology is. Once a toe has been dipped into the water, the piranhas come swarming around. Every institution is compromised, every well-meaning but misguided adult pushing children into the gender factory farm.
You are a good and loving parent. Those are the only words I can muster to help you with your pain.
One of the saddest stories I have read on PITT… your son has been stolen and brainwashed by this evil T-cult which has no boundaries. Your pain and suffering is overwhelming but you are not alone. All of us connected to PITT have cried many tears over our loved ones caught in the clutches of this cult. My darling sweet nephew is gone and has no-contact with his parents. I cannot even tell you how many tears my sister has shed over the love and loss for her son. My own tears have been many over this lost boy and I am just the loving aunt. I must believe that God counts every tear drop shed for all these stolen boys and girls and that He understands our deep sadness. Do not lose hope as this façade cannot continue forever. The world is starting to wake up to the truth and is realizing the harm that has been done. For some it may be too late but for other's it is not.
Thank you for your heart wrenching and inspiring story. I thought my tears had dried up, but no, they are still here, and welled up while reading "I Cry on the Beach'. I have a degree of separation (somewhat), as the sick people in my life who have bought into the madness are my beloved grandchildren (that I helped raise) and they turned away from me years ago. My son, their father, has abandoned me for who knows why, his own mental illness? Since I am banished from their lives, I do not know where they are in the scheme of this ungodly mess, have they caved to surgeries, are they ill from the hormones and drugs? How are they surviving? Where are my great grandchildren in all this? I do not know. But I am also given the grace of separation, as you have been given by your dearly loved Ricky. He did it out of his illness and due to the clutches of the vile cult but by keeping close to our God who sees us, dear one, you will survive to continue the fight. He needs each one of us to overcome this evil. Keep leaning into the Father of all, He will never change in this world that makes no sense, that's ever changing. We have glimmers of hope, soon it will be floods, if we do not give up. Thank you, I cry with you. Love, Indio.
I feel your pain. We too have a son born in the early 1990’s who was groomed on Tumblr. Tomorrow is his birthday, the eighth one without him. I will likely find another place to cry “where I never cried before.” I have found that the death of a loved one gets easier to accept as the years go by but when it is you that has been put to death, it gets harder as the years go by. We may feel we are crying alone but, “The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
My son is in the beginning of all this… he’s an adult and lives in another state attending school. He still talks to me mostly through text messages… he knows I don’t agree with it. I’m terrified of this future. Praying is all I do.. all I feel I can do.
Thank you for writing this and sharing. I join you praying for Ricky, for my son who is traveling the same road, and for all our prodigals. When we’re weary, we go back and pray again. When we’re frustrated, we go back and pray again. When we’re hopeful, when we’re hopeless, when our minds cannot conceive what in the world is going on… we will pray again. But I want to act and stand up against this, too.
All of these glimpses into the lives of the parents and siblings left in the wake of this social contagion are heartbreaking, and yours really got to me. I only know one thing: God loves children, and he does not forget. And as horrific as this, and every other story told by others are, I rest in the knowledge that God is still in control. He sees the damage that has been done, and He does not forget. I pray fervently that he will deliver these kids from this cult that is from the pit of hell. I pray that he will remove the scales from their ayea and that they will become a mighty force for Him and to bring sanity back to the world. I pray that the stench of the sin that doctors and psychiatrists are perpetuating will rouse God's holy anger at the destruction to those he made in His image.
I’m relatively new to this site and I read this when it showed up in my email this morning. It’s now almost 4 pm on the west coast and I have been thinking about this all day. It is so heartbreaking. I also have an adult son caught up in the cult but he still has contact with us and I am thankful for that. He lives in a different state and my biggest fears are the next steps. I pray he snaps out of it before he does any surgical damage. Hormones for the last 3-4 years have already done damage but I lose sleep about him wanting to take it further. I am so sorry for you and your wife and all you’ve been through. You should be enjoying the golden years on the beach with your family instead of the constant sadness that all of this is causing you both. ❤️🩹
Hi, thanks for this post. I am recovering from being affected by medical transition. It is a delusional and evil cult indeed. I have a long testimony I may share one day, with Gods help. I am so very sorry about your son Ricky. I will be praying for him to return home to you and Jesus. Nothing is too difficult or impossible for God. There is about 70 detransitioners showing up in Washington DC next week, coming from all different parts of the world. If you check of Genspect and Stella O Malley on YouTube and on Substack you will see more details. She is an Irish psychiatrist fighting against the trans ideology and has done some fantastic work with those affected by this madness. God bless.
Excellent information. Ty so glad you are on your way to a healthier life.
It's been 20 years since my trans then-H left us in 2006. I didn't want to know the details of his life of isolation and confusion after castration. I only watched him from afar. During our "marriage" he had taunted me 24/7 so I was psychologically tortured. And on top of that he gas-lit me: if I showed any sign of anger at his wild and self-destructive behaviour he would taunt me: "You need an anger-management course". For 10 years before he left us I kept my anger under my control. I never allowed him to "flip me over". And then he left.
He died by suicide 4 years ago, in April 2022. RIP. The only peace he had for decades.
I blame the psychiatrists, the surgeon who castrated him, the Labour Government who passed the "Gender" "Recognition" Act in 2004 and gave a semblance of "normality" to his mutilation and suffering. He had been a deeply psychologically disturbed man, but I didn't know. No one knew except one independent Consultant Psychiatrist who actually helped me, a bit, to just ask the right questions. Whatever was the cause of his descent into insanity (possibly childhood trauma) it seems that no doctor wanted to inquire while he was alive, by taking a psychiatric history and helping him to face his pain. No. None of the "experts" cared at all.
We are living in an upside-down age. These abominable stories ARE coming to the surface. Good people ARE listening, especially in my country, Britain, which is "TERF Island". There WILL be a reckoning for the lazy and destructive medics and the politicians.
This is my mission. I work on it every day. I Tweet: @STranswidows (for Scientist Transwidows).
I weep for you and your son. I pray that he sees the errors that he had committed and the pain that he has inflicted on you and his mother. If he gets bored and wants to find out why he feels THEN there is a chance he could recover. Just a chance.
I am crying with you now💕
The sadness and tragedy of this on so many levels is almost overwhelming. I’m so sorry this has happened to you and to your son. I feel like even though he has openly chosen this path, he was led down the path while he was still a child and I pray (literally) that God will take that into consideration, and extend his everlasting mercy to him.
Telling your story is absolutely necessary to help other parents see the devastating consequences that lie at the end of the gender road and do anything and everything possible to get their children off it. Thank you for sharing 💕
Just nearly speechless! Interesting to me that you wrote that earlier piece the same year my daughter came to the conclusion that she too was "trans". All of the earlier talking points were pasted into an email demanding I not employ my typical approach of "questioning everything" and instead-requesting that I trust her in making this "long thought out decision" (3-5 yrs from a leftist college indoctrination) even tho she has "doubts" she didn't need mine now since she had made up her mind. 3 months later surgery occurred and I too have been devastated ever since.
She also went the "go fund me" outlet- led by the confused Girlfriend (they friend) who was the first to use and then discard T. Now 31 and fully an intact female -still calls herself Trans and offers body work services to other "trans folx". She calls my daughter HE and had said to me- "it's a mastectomy- omg what is the big deal?" I wanted to punch her lights out but she felt it and left the area.. How can two brilliant, smart, confident young women have bought into such false beliefs? I'll save it for another story...
Today - years later girlfriend has the gall to call me her adopted mom.. "Fuck off" is all I can think..but I bite my tongue and give her the minimum hug.. I'll spare everyone the rest as there is nothing unique to tell.
My question tho for you - is when did that quoted scientific information come forward and where is the original source? Very curious as I had not seen that specific info.
Thank you for sharing such a well written, heartfelt story and truth.. I can only hope these stories at some point get published in some way on MSM..
I too stand with you. What a horrendous and almost unbelievable experience for us all..
God, please hold this broken hearted Dad, and draw his precious son back to you and to his family.
I'm so so sorry and my heart weeps with yours 😢🩵🙏
As a former lifelong Democrat, 100% of this trans plague can be attributed to Democrats and Democrats alone. I finally switched parties years ago when I saw them alone pushing this insanity. Democrats and their elite billionaire cronies are also the ones pushing for depopulation. I’m sure it’s a complete coincidence that all of our institutions schools, hospitals and government are simultaneously pushing autistic teenagers and young adults to become their “ true selves” through sterilization using either chemical or medical methods. The Rothschilds and Schwab’s of the world are surely quite pleased with this. You both sound like wonderful parents, you were let down by society and I am so sorry for that. I pray your son will one day come out of this and back to you. If any of you have lost a child to this cult, please stop voting Democrat. If you cannot do this, than I’m sorry, but you’ve lost the right to be outraged on the topic.
Thanks you for sharing your life story. I can so relate to you and your family. I am a parent and have my son in this cult too. I should share my story like you because it’s so similar. I pray also for this nightmare to be over. Keep the faith.
I'm gutted by this and for what your family has been through.
The number of times that other adults in his life could have intervened to right side your child's ship, to show him another way, to get him help - but instead pushed this forward, illustrates how pervasive and cancerous this ideology is. Once a toe has been dipped into the water, the piranhas come swarming around. Every institution is compromised, every well-meaning but misguided adult pushing children into the gender factory farm.
You are a good and loving parent. Those are the only words I can muster to help you with your pain.
One of the saddest stories I have read on PITT… your son has been stolen and brainwashed by this evil T-cult which has no boundaries. Your pain and suffering is overwhelming but you are not alone. All of us connected to PITT have cried many tears over our loved ones caught in the clutches of this cult. My darling sweet nephew is gone and has no-contact with his parents. I cannot even tell you how many tears my sister has shed over the love and loss for her son. My own tears have been many over this lost boy and I am just the loving aunt. I must believe that God counts every tear drop shed for all these stolen boys and girls and that He understands our deep sadness. Do not lose hope as this façade cannot continue forever. The world is starting to wake up to the truth and is realizing the harm that has been done. For some it may be too late but for other's it is not.
Thank you for your heart wrenching and inspiring story. I thought my tears had dried up, but no, they are still here, and welled up while reading "I Cry on the Beach'. I have a degree of separation (somewhat), as the sick people in my life who have bought into the madness are my beloved grandchildren (that I helped raise) and they turned away from me years ago. My son, their father, has abandoned me for who knows why, his own mental illness? Since I am banished from their lives, I do not know where they are in the scheme of this ungodly mess, have they caved to surgeries, are they ill from the hormones and drugs? How are they surviving? Where are my great grandchildren in all this? I do not know. But I am also given the grace of separation, as you have been given by your dearly loved Ricky. He did it out of his illness and due to the clutches of the vile cult but by keeping close to our God who sees us, dear one, you will survive to continue the fight. He needs each one of us to overcome this evil. Keep leaning into the Father of all, He will never change in this world that makes no sense, that's ever changing. We have glimmers of hope, soon it will be floods, if we do not give up. Thank you, I cry with you. Love, Indio.
I feel your pain. We too have a son born in the early 1990’s who was groomed on Tumblr. Tomorrow is his birthday, the eighth one without him. I will likely find another place to cry “where I never cried before.” I have found that the death of a loved one gets easier to accept as the years go by but when it is you that has been put to death, it gets harder as the years go by. We may feel we are crying alone but, “The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Such beautiful writing about unspeakable suffering! My heart goes out to you and all other parents who've been thrown in to a living hell.