Our stories are very similar...my son started going more down hill after his 4 month "well" (I now call sick) visit. Sadly I thought I had to work (would do it over again if I could). In his years from pre-K to 12th grade he was in 7 schools (one of them twice), moving from place to place trying to help him get through it. I think he had exposure to something he shouldn't have at a young age, but he has not yet talked about it. The suicide threats started at about age 9. I hope one day we will know. It's such a long complex situation. I believe it's coming to an end, because I have to. If you haven't seen Out of Shadows with Mike Smith, Liz Crokin, and Brad Martin, it can open your eyes to a lot. Everything is connected and the evil behind this is worse than most can imagine; but our God is a good God, and as a line in my sons video "Burn in Hell Jezebel" says, the anger has boiled to the top. HE has seen enough...the world is waking up...and He is going to move and put an end to it. There have been many child pornography rings and others arrested over the past several years, as well as children rescued...and I do believe that we will learn the truth some time in the not to distant future, and will see how it is this evil came to take over and harm so many people both physically and emotionally/spiritually. Hang in there....after what they say may be a "near death experience", things will turn around and be better than ever!
Want me to help you locate “somewhere along the way”? That’d be unsupervised internet access. You allowed your son to be condemned to a fate worse than death. Modern internet “porn” and the subsequent gaslighting about how normal it is. You’re welcome.
Thank you for your comment Crimson, don't think I haven't agonised over this again and again. It's easy to look back and see what happened from the place I am now, and all of us parents have wished we made different decisions. We were pretty strict about internet use, but had no idea of the darkness, I didn't grow up with the internet, as I'm sure many parents on here didn't, how could we possibly know that this was a possible outcome. I'm glad that you can see how dangerous it is.
I agree with you that the internet plays a huge part in this, but I don't know if Moms (or Dads) can completely withhold it. If the child goes to school or has friends, they will be able to access sites that parents may not want them to have access to.
Also, this Mom is clearly suffering and your tone seems uncaring. To be clear, I do think parents have some role to play in this, but there is the whole society-at-large thing that is hard to avoid.
I don't have kids, but, if I did, I would homeschool and avoid pharmaceuticals. A lot of this reflects the pharmaceutical industry's undercurrent to get kids hooked on THEIR drugs.
And you’re right about my tone. It’s not uncaring, I apologize. I am furious at you clueless parents though. Mine too. I’m absolutely dumbfounded parents aren’t demanding censorship of pornography (like they have on you tube) by Google for 20 years. It’s set us up for this and future nightmares to be possible. Obviously whatever is going viral on Tik tik and being taught st schools is a massive factor too. But man. Parents threw their kids into a meat grinder. It does make me angry. Tech company accountability is a massive factor here.
We’re mostly all in the same boat here. I’ve lost friends because I don’t affirm, and I’ve lost friends because they consider it my fault that my child has fallen into this.
So much of what you say is the same - my daughter was a quirky kid, maybe had some autistic traits but was doing well and I didn’t want her to be labeled. Everything was fine until high school when it all fell apart, so quickly I didn’t even know what happened. No risk factors - she lives with both parents, in a conservative area, no abuse or neglect, but did get bullied a bit in school.
Thank you for sharing this. You’re inspiring me to post some of my private writings about this topic and my daughter.
Similarly, my daughter was different in childhood but because of environmental toxicity and some learning challenges and family discord. Her shift to questioning gender started soon after the mean girls started bullying her in middle school.
She was the 3rd girl in her 8th grade class ti make this “choice”.
Every day and night I pray for every single parent and child caught up in this cult.
I pray they see the light and return to their families who love them deeply. They learn to love themselves exactly as they are and accept their minds and bodies as they were made. I pray they have the determination to admit they made a mistake and they can be forgiven no questions asked.
I will not give up on my son. I once a month send a text and update him on my life knowing I won’t get a response but I tell him I love him and miss him. I tell him I’m thinking and praying for him.
The devil is not going to win as I will not give in to this cult. Prayers to you all.
Similar. Tonight I lit a candle for mine, took a pic of it and sent it to him, hoping that one day he might return. But he has cancelled me, so will never see the pic of the candle that I lit for him, took a pic, and sent it, to him.
Thank you for sharing this. I, too, am a mother missing her beautiful son, lost to the trans cult. He started hormones at 20 and is now 22. It is so helpful to read stories of others going through similar situations. I look forward to part 2.
My daughter was drawn into the trans cult by a young man, who was the catalyst of our estrangement, and I’ll admit, it’s been difficult not to direct much of my anger toward him in my heart. We feel betrayed and lied to. I believe he was toying with the idea long before he came clean with our daughter, and by then, she was deeply devoted. But if I’m being honest, I feel far more resentment toward his mother. Because while many kids get caught in the net of this ideology, I’ve believe there are really only two kinds of mothers in this equation.
There is the mother who deeply loves her child and may not know what’s right or how to protect them, but she wants to, and she tries. And then there is the kind who neglected her child, carries guilt for it, and sees their child’s “coming out” as a chance to absolve themselves—by becoming the most vocal, unquestioning cheerleader of all. That is the kind of mother he has. And that woman has replaced me in my daughter’s heart, acting as a fuel to keep the fires of division burning because we would not affirm her son. Admittedly, my heart is very hard towards her now.
But it’s accounts such as this that remind me not to let the hardness I feel toward her spill over onto others. I know that most mothers truly love their children and were blindsided by this movement, just as we were. And truly, my heart aches for all of us. Even those that affirm and cheerlead their own child’s demise. Sometimes I truly believe “they know not what they do.” And that helps me to extend grace.
Friends have tried to comfort me by saying, “At least it’s him and not your daughter.” But she loved him. She planned to marry him. For years, I thought of him as my son-to-be. And now, I grieve deeply for what seven years on estrogen—and their descent into pornography—has done to them both. He pressured her to disown us a couple of years ago, and then broke up with her six months later. But she still lives with him and helps facilitate his lifestyle as a “friend.” All of her hopes and dreams of being married and becoming a mother are gone now. And perhaps I should praise God that they didn’t produce a child to indoctrinate into the trans cult, because that would surely destroy me.
Thank you for reminding me to keep my heart soft where it ought to be. It’s apparent that you love your son dearly, and are a good mom. You have my prayers and compassion. ❤️
I hate bullies! I was picked on as a kid, teased because I was gangly, called names, last picked to join on a team. I felt awkward and ugly due to braces and glasses. My homelife was tense and very dramatic: alcoholic father, fighting parents, secrets, gambling addiction, infidelity, sister rivalry, a mother who found Jesus and a way to cope. For many years I would dream about moving far away once I was old enough. I was depressed and probably ADHD. Rough childhood. When my beautiful and smart daughter was bullied in school I became a Momma Bear, and I did everything I could to stop it. But it continued. No matter how many times I was up at her school, calling other parents, it continued. She finally dropped out of high school and got her GED. It had not been an easy road for her, as she grew up without a father (alcoholic and abusive). She is now an amazing mother to a darling 5-year-old girl. We both worry about her being bullied. How do we break the cycle? I am sad that your son was bullied. Kids can be so cruel - is this behavior learned at home? I look forward to reading more about your son's story.
I have come to the conclusion that conventional schooling is best avoided for our youth....too much indoctrination going on there. The bullies are the enforcers of the indoctrination. NYC public schools over here have become very unsafe places for the sane.
Once the mind is taken what follows is "medicalization" which even sounds like a euphemism to me. Gender Ideology should not be taught in schools any more than the teachings of Heaven's Gate! Their followers castrated themselves.
Bright, sensitive, caring, quirky... this describes so many of the kids who fall into the Trans Cult. I wonder whether it describes many people who have fallen for other cults historically - regardless even of age.
Another mother missing a son here. He started on hormones at 18; he’s now 21 and I’ve had no contact for over 2 years now. The only thing I have is an email address, and he responds to none of my emails. I pray for a society that someday learns to accept the “different” boys as they are. Acceptance so they don’t get caught in trying to run from themselves because they’ve been made so uncomfortable in this world as they are. And appreciation for the wondrous variety of them so they don’t feel they must mutilate their bodies and souls to find human connection.
Sounds like my son, now 33, birthday coming up, I don't see him, he won't tolerate that I disagree with him. He has a girlfriend who sees herself as his saviour and wants him to be her wife, it's all nuts, incredibly sad and harmful, but there's a glimmer of hope now the tide is turning and those allies that champion it might want a different cause to fight for especially if this current one is thoroughly discredited.
Our stories are very similar...my son started going more down hill after his 4 month "well" (I now call sick) visit. Sadly I thought I had to work (would do it over again if I could). In his years from pre-K to 12th grade he was in 7 schools (one of them twice), moving from place to place trying to help him get through it. I think he had exposure to something he shouldn't have at a young age, but he has not yet talked about it. The suicide threats started at about age 9. I hope one day we will know. It's such a long complex situation. I believe it's coming to an end, because I have to. If you haven't seen Out of Shadows with Mike Smith, Liz Crokin, and Brad Martin, it can open your eyes to a lot. Everything is connected and the evil behind this is worse than most can imagine; but our God is a good God, and as a line in my sons video "Burn in Hell Jezebel" says, the anger has boiled to the top. HE has seen enough...the world is waking up...and He is going to move and put an end to it. There have been many child pornography rings and others arrested over the past several years, as well as children rescued...and I do believe that we will learn the truth some time in the not to distant future, and will see how it is this evil came to take over and harm so many people both physically and emotionally/spiritually. Hang in there....after what they say may be a "near death experience", things will turn around and be better than ever!
Familiar story....
Want me to help you locate “somewhere along the way”? That’d be unsupervised internet access. You allowed your son to be condemned to a fate worse than death. Modern internet “porn” and the subsequent gaslighting about how normal it is. You’re welcome.
Thank you for your comment Crimson, don't think I haven't agonised over this again and again. It's easy to look back and see what happened from the place I am now, and all of us parents have wished we made different decisions. We were pretty strict about internet use, but had no idea of the darkness, I didn't grow up with the internet, as I'm sure many parents on here didn't, how could we possibly know that this was a possible outcome. I'm glad that you can see how dangerous it is.
Hi Crimson,
I agree with you that the internet plays a huge part in this, but I don't know if Moms (or Dads) can completely withhold it. If the child goes to school or has friends, they will be able to access sites that parents may not want them to have access to.
Also, this Mom is clearly suffering and your tone seems uncaring. To be clear, I do think parents have some role to play in this, but there is the whole society-at-large thing that is hard to avoid.
I don't have kids, but, if I did, I would homeschool and avoid pharmaceuticals. A lot of this reflects the pharmaceutical industry's undercurrent to get kids hooked on THEIR drugs.
And you’re right about my tone. It’s not uncaring, I apologize. I am furious at you clueless parents though. Mine too. I’m absolutely dumbfounded parents aren’t demanding censorship of pornography (like they have on you tube) by Google for 20 years. It’s set us up for this and future nightmares to be possible. Obviously whatever is going viral on Tik tik and being taught st schools is a massive factor too. But man. Parents threw their kids into a meat grinder. It does make me angry. Tech company accountability is a massive factor here.
Good luck with that. Christians tried to censor porn since the 90s only to be mocked and told “If you don’t like it, don’t watch it.” The world
Is far darker and forces far more powerful now than in the 90s.
💯
We’re mostly all in the same boat here. I’ve lost friends because I don’t affirm, and I’ve lost friends because they consider it my fault that my child has fallen into this.
So much of what you say is the same - my daughter was a quirky kid, maybe had some autistic traits but was doing well and I didn’t want her to be labeled. Everything was fine until high school when it all fell apart, so quickly I didn’t even know what happened. No risk factors - she lives with both parents, in a conservative area, no abuse or neglect, but did get bullied a bit in school.
my son is so similar.
Thank you for sharing this. You’re inspiring me to post some of my private writings about this topic and my daughter.
Similarly, my daughter was different in childhood but because of environmental toxicity and some learning challenges and family discord. Her shift to questioning gender started soon after the mean girls started bullying her in middle school.
She was the 3rd girl in her 8th grade class ti make this “choice”.
Much love to you & your son. & your family. 💛
So many of the boys are just how you describe your son. It’s a wicked waste of their talents quite apart from the grief of their parents
Every day and night I pray for every single parent and child caught up in this cult.
I pray they see the light and return to their families who love them deeply. They learn to love themselves exactly as they are and accept their minds and bodies as they were made. I pray they have the determination to admit they made a mistake and they can be forgiven no questions asked.
I will not give up on my son. I once a month send a text and update him on my life knowing I won’t get a response but I tell him I love him and miss him. I tell him I’m thinking and praying for him.
The devil is not going to win as I will not give in to this cult. Prayers to you all.
Similar. Tonight I lit a candle for mine, took a pic of it and sent it to him, hoping that one day he might return. But he has cancelled me, so will never see the pic of the candle that I lit for him, took a pic, and sent it, to him.
Thank you for sharing this. I, too, am a mother missing her beautiful son, lost to the trans cult. He started hormones at 20 and is now 22. It is so helpful to read stories of others going through similar situations. I look forward to part 2.
My daughter was drawn into the trans cult by a young man, who was the catalyst of our estrangement, and I’ll admit, it’s been difficult not to direct much of my anger toward him in my heart. We feel betrayed and lied to. I believe he was toying with the idea long before he came clean with our daughter, and by then, she was deeply devoted. But if I’m being honest, I feel far more resentment toward his mother. Because while many kids get caught in the net of this ideology, I’ve believe there are really only two kinds of mothers in this equation.
There is the mother who deeply loves her child and may not know what’s right or how to protect them, but she wants to, and she tries. And then there is the kind who neglected her child, carries guilt for it, and sees their child’s “coming out” as a chance to absolve themselves—by becoming the most vocal, unquestioning cheerleader of all. That is the kind of mother he has. And that woman has replaced me in my daughter’s heart, acting as a fuel to keep the fires of division burning because we would not affirm her son. Admittedly, my heart is very hard towards her now.
But it’s accounts such as this that remind me not to let the hardness I feel toward her spill over onto others. I know that most mothers truly love their children and were blindsided by this movement, just as we were. And truly, my heart aches for all of us. Even those that affirm and cheerlead their own child’s demise. Sometimes I truly believe “they know not what they do.” And that helps me to extend grace.
Friends have tried to comfort me by saying, “At least it’s him and not your daughter.” But she loved him. She planned to marry him. For years, I thought of him as my son-to-be. And now, I grieve deeply for what seven years on estrogen—and their descent into pornography—has done to them both. He pressured her to disown us a couple of years ago, and then broke up with her six months later. But she still lives with him and helps facilitate his lifestyle as a “friend.” All of her hopes and dreams of being married and becoming a mother are gone now. And perhaps I should praise God that they didn’t produce a child to indoctrinate into the trans cult, because that would surely destroy me.
Thank you for reminding me to keep my heart soft where it ought to be. It’s apparent that you love your son dearly, and are a good mom. You have my prayers and compassion. ❤️
Thank you, I send love and healing to you too 💜
I hate bullies! I was picked on as a kid, teased because I was gangly, called names, last picked to join on a team. I felt awkward and ugly due to braces and glasses. My homelife was tense and very dramatic: alcoholic father, fighting parents, secrets, gambling addiction, infidelity, sister rivalry, a mother who found Jesus and a way to cope. For many years I would dream about moving far away once I was old enough. I was depressed and probably ADHD. Rough childhood. When my beautiful and smart daughter was bullied in school I became a Momma Bear, and I did everything I could to stop it. But it continued. No matter how many times I was up at her school, calling other parents, it continued. She finally dropped out of high school and got her GED. It had not been an easy road for her, as she grew up without a father (alcoholic and abusive). She is now an amazing mother to a darling 5-year-old girl. We both worry about her being bullied. How do we break the cycle? I am sad that your son was bullied. Kids can be so cruel - is this behavior learned at home? I look forward to reading more about your son's story.
I have come to the conclusion that conventional schooling is best avoided for our youth....too much indoctrination going on there. The bullies are the enforcers of the indoctrination. NYC public schools over here have become very unsafe places for the sane.
Here is a drop of positive news:
An official website of the United States government
Administration for Children & Families
“ACF Instructs California to Modify Sex-Ed Content Riddled with Gender-Ideology in 60-days”
https://acf.gov/media/press/2025/acf-instructs-california-modify-sex-ed-content-riddled-gender-ideology-60-days
Once the mind is taken what follows is "medicalization" which even sounds like a euphemism to me. Gender Ideology should not be taught in schools any more than the teachings of Heaven's Gate! Their followers castrated themselves.
Bright, sensitive, caring, quirky... this describes so many of the kids who fall into the Trans Cult. I wonder whether it describes many people who have fallen for other cults historically - regardless even of age.
Another mother missing a son here. He started on hormones at 18; he’s now 21 and I’ve had no contact for over 2 years now. The only thing I have is an email address, and he responds to none of my emails. I pray for a society that someday learns to accept the “different” boys as they are. Acceptance so they don’t get caught in trying to run from themselves because they’ve been made so uncomfortable in this world as they are. And appreciation for the wondrous variety of them so they don’t feel they must mutilate their bodies and souls to find human connection.
Sounds like my son, now 33, birthday coming up, I don't see him, he won't tolerate that I disagree with him. He has a girlfriend who sees herself as his saviour and wants him to be her wife, it's all nuts, incredibly sad and harmful, but there's a glimmer of hope now the tide is turning and those allies that champion it might want a different cause to fight for especially if this current one is thoroughly discredited.