The ABC of My Trans Adventure, Part Four

This is the forth segment of an essay in four parts. Part one and part two and part three.

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If I was to keep going down the alphabet, I would say that D stands for Delightful Desistance from Destructive Dysphoria and Definitive Detransitioning.

I'm not sure if you are aware of it, but a little over 50 years ago, Frederick Jaffe, an economist and back then VP of Planned Parenthood Federation of America, was assigned the project of enacting a plan, with the purpose of limiting the U.S. population growth. He came up with a series of proposals known as the "Jaffe Memo".¹

Some of the proposals are, unsurprisingly: make contraception available and accessible, abortion and sterilization on demand, marriage avoidance/postponing child rearing by convincing women to pursue higher education or joining the workforce, shifting feelings about the importance of family (think of today's fad of DINK (Double Income No Kids), etc...Another proposal was to put fertility control agents, like Atrazine, in the water supply. It appears to have worked to perfection since the sperm count has been reduced by 50% in the past 50 years (and "funny" fact, most Atrazine used in the US is manufactured by Syngenta, a company owned by the CCP (Chinese Communist Party))...Another proposal of Jaffe that speaks volume, was titled "chronic depression".

That clever bastard was aware that if you go through life in constant mental anguish, unable to find peace and meaning, you're unlikely to build a family. How terrible to wish that torturous mental state on anyone for the sake of limiting births. Why am I sharing all that? The original plan called FP 2020 (FP stands for Family Planning) was so successful that it was renewed for another decade under the name FP 2030. But what is fascinating and equally scandalous, is that, in the past 15 years, a new "proposal" has been added to the list. Interestingly, it consists of putting to good use the gender confusion ideology to "prevent mass births".² Practically speaking, the rise and supremacy of gender confusion and systematic opposition to the traditional gender norms was and is still done in a planned and organized way, to help stagnate the population (among other untold objectives and different agendas...). The amazing "experts" at work... Nothing irks me more than to think that the trans deception I went through and nearly destroyed my life, was socially engineered years ago, before many trans-identified kids who are today's victims of the trans madness, were even born. How mind boggling to realize that what has entrapped and devastated so many, and even killed a number of people was part of "a plan" conceived by "well-meaning professionals" (or are they...?).

H is for Horrible Humans from Hell, Hating Humanity, Harming Horrifically and Heavily Harrowing Havoc...

So much craziness, so much hellish suffering, so much abysmal harm, to "fulfill" a multi-pronged agenda. The "plan" has institutionalized destructive lies, legalized medical malpractice, glorified lifelong medicalization and turned reason, logic and fact-based science upside down. 

And though I once fell for it, I refuse to have any part in it. I refuse to be "kind" if that kindness makes me affirm a lie and be complicit in the devastation of a life. 

I choose reality and will not play along with unreasonable, unrealistic, unjust and unjustified demands. No, I won't call my mom Moppa to "combat archaic gendered terms and express freedom from gender", my sister a nibling to exalt "non binarity" or my boyfriend " bothfriend" to " break down traditional gender roles and be inclusive".³ I won't play along with your "mandatory pronouns", abdicate my intellect when you insist that plural pronouns apply to a single person or that men get pregnant, and your deadname is very much alive to me. Words are important. They have a meaning that conveys a message that shapes our values and beliefs that in turn, affect our choices and behaviors. I will not comply with established nonsense.

So, now what? As much as I wish, pray and work towards the worldwide end of the trans insanity and the outlawing of legal mutilation of trans captured victims with complete immunity granted to the perpetrators, I also refuse to live in a daily pity party.

The past is the past. What happened, happened. No amount of anger or self-pity can make up for the damage done, the broken relationships and lost opportunities.  All I can do is start anew from today and move forward towards the future, whatever that future may look like. It may not be as amazing as it could have been, but it will definitely be better than if I just throw in the towel. Every day can bring small victories to celebrate. Most of the health issues I have spent the past six months dealing with are self-inflicted (ok, all of them). But every move towards a healthier me brings me closer to a deeper healing and a renewed sense of dignity. Every baby step towards forgiveness and reconciliation with people matters in a huge way. Restoration of body, mind, soul and family bonds is possible. It's a process that takes time, work, courage and heart. But it can happen.

I was afraid to suffer as a girl. And it led to a way deeper and long-lasting suffering. Until I was able to accept that some facts in life (like puberty), will bring some measure of pain and discomfort, I missed out on life out of fear of suffering. Unless I make my peace with the reality that pain is part of the package, I won't be able to enjoy life.

And though I strive for joy, if I aim for a pain free life, I'll end up with a lifeless existence. 

What I know is that as long as I'm alive, there is a hope for a better tomorrow. A tomorrow free from pervert, greedy and power hungry "experts". Free from the slavery of mental confusion and bodily harm. Free from believing the lie that something is wrong with my body. Free to be the only one I was really and truly made to be. With all my gifts and my flaws. My unique self. That no one else is exactly like. The girl I was born and will always be.

And no agenda, no plan, no experimental lie and no social contagion can change that undeniable and everlasting truth.

Will you affirm me?

Helene 

1. https://archive.org/details/fredericks_jaffe_memorandum_to_bernard_berelson/1969.03.11

2. https://www.frontline.news/post/us-depopulation-plan-hits-new-milestone

3. https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2023/04/a-guide-to-inclusive-gender-neutral-family-terms/