I feel every word of this. To those who adopt "be kind" and "trans people have always been around" make assumptions which harm relationships. I feel completely alone
Perfectly stated. I cycle through all these emotions/thoughts and sometimes all at once. I would add that I’m desperately trying to find the strength to be a loving, joyful presence in my other child’s and family’s lives when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep
It’s an unrelenting pain that keeps us tethered to a corrupt and corrupting world. The constant tension of horror that we have failed so magnificently at parenting with the hope that we might yet see our children live free from this cultish delusion that wants to rob them of health, meaning, and body parts.
Forgive me, God. Forgive me, my son. Whatever I did to contribute to this, I am so very, very sorry. I grieve deeply the cost and consequences. And not one of my tears will undo the damage nor convince my son that I truly love him more than I could ever explain.
🫂. My heart truly aches with you. I absolutely know how you’re feeling my son is also swept up in this nightmare cult. Thank you for finding words for the horrific nightmare we’re enduring I can’t find the words for the trauma, grief and pain. I’m ahead of you in that I found out last summer that my estranged son had taken the step to entrust his healthy young body to a Dr Mengele “gender” surgeon. The anguish is beyond words devastating. My son is enduring horrendous post-surgical complications yet he remains estranged. He married an online male contact, I have never had any contact from this person despite I’d tried to be welcoming before my son fully estranged. It’s brutal.
So-called “grs” surgery had been my fear, since ROGD struck in 2014. when my son was 15yo. There’s not one person on either side of my family I can turn to for support, empathy, understanding. I’m grateful for friends who support me tho they don’t fully understand the hell this ideology wreaks on vulnerable kids & young adults,or their loving parents. I pray your son finds strength to step back from the self-destructive path he’s on.
I’m not a religious person. But…..My only coping strategy at this point, is to find that place deep in my soul, where only God and I exist. It is only there that I can feel a small amount a hope and imagine that my kid may find a way out of this. Divine intervention is possible and miracles can happen.
My heart aches… I KNOW these exact feelings. I’m so very sorry… I pray for you as watch & wait. May you be filled with hope, grace, comfort that only the Lord can give. I pray you are able to “wait well” — not despairing. I pray this daily for myself as I also walk this unbelievably heart-breaking path. Your hurt, desperation & heart wrenching pain are seen — YOU ARE SEEN - you are held. ❤️
1. glycine powder in lukewarm water + NAC pill - neurotransmitters, antioxidant, sleep quality, etc
2. A pill of Alpha-lipoic acid + acetyl L-carnitine powder in lukewarm water on empty stomach is excellent if you take it when migraine is approaching. Helps with regular headache as well (tested on myself).
I eat enough meat that carnatine is not an issue for me, but many people are avoiding meat (which in my opinion it is a mistake to avoid meat). So a supplement can help. Glycine is very interesting. It can be used as a sweetener, and if it is used to substitute and avoid sugar, it can very helpful.
Alexander, I'm with you on importance of meat. I stayed on keto for a year and a half and god rid of lots of health issues. My migraines went from happening every couple of weeks during winter and lasting for 48 hours+ to 1-2 per year. Massive change. Then I switched to a low carb "diet" and stay with it.
🫂I feel so much of this. In my case, my daughter. One who gave me no trouble until the plague kidnapped her mind at an age (23) I thought we were past teenage cult concerns. Yet the vampires came and sucked the life from her and it so few people in my circle can even remotely empathize what it feels like to try to sleep at night and the dread of another morning each day revealing the reality of a nightmare I haven't awakened from.
My daughter was 32 when she suddenly and without any hint of prior dysphoria decided that “she has always been a boy”. As a widower with only her as my family, I am at a complete loss for what to do.
I feel your pain, its a lonely road as friends just dont get it. 23 yes i would have thought you’d passed the “danger zone” for all if this. Mine was 17. I am sorry this has happened to your family
We're in the same boat together. My son is planning his surgery for this July. I don't know what to do or how to cope. It feels like thats his death day and I want to die with him.
I feel every word of this. To those who adopt "be kind" and "trans people have always been around" make assumptions which harm relationships. I feel completely alone
So sorry for what you and he are going through. Praying for you both.
Perfectly said. I go through these same emotions. Sad as it is, we are not alone.
Perfectly stated. I cycle through all these emotions/thoughts and sometimes all at once. I would add that I’m desperately trying to find the strength to be a loving, joyful presence in my other child’s and family’s lives when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep
Same here as a Father of a Daughter caught by this insanity. Life's joys come in crumbs here and there. The nightmare is always present.
It’s an unrelenting pain that keeps us tethered to a corrupt and corrupting world. The constant tension of horror that we have failed so magnificently at parenting with the hope that we might yet see our children live free from this cultish delusion that wants to rob them of health, meaning, and body parts.
Forgive me, God. Forgive me, my son. Whatever I did to contribute to this, I am so very, very sorry. I grieve deeply the cost and consequences. And not one of my tears will undo the damage nor convince my son that I truly love him more than I could ever explain.
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I’m so sorry. The weight of this is unimaginable. We hear you and we care💕
My heart aches for you & all on here.
The people who have affirmed & groomed our children have no idea of the damage to every aspect of the young persons life!
🫂. My heart truly aches with you. I absolutely know how you’re feeling my son is also swept up in this nightmare cult. Thank you for finding words for the horrific nightmare we’re enduring I can’t find the words for the trauma, grief and pain. I’m ahead of you in that I found out last summer that my estranged son had taken the step to entrust his healthy young body to a Dr Mengele “gender” surgeon. The anguish is beyond words devastating. My son is enduring horrendous post-surgical complications yet he remains estranged. He married an online male contact, I have never had any contact from this person despite I’d tried to be welcoming before my son fully estranged. It’s brutal.
So-called “grs” surgery had been my fear, since ROGD struck in 2014. when my son was 15yo. There’s not one person on either side of my family I can turn to for support, empathy, understanding. I’m grateful for friends who support me tho they don’t fully understand the hell this ideology wreaks on vulnerable kids & young adults,or their loving parents. I pray your son finds strength to step back from the self-destructive path he’s on.
💔
I too, know the desperate sobbing.
I’m not a religious person. But…..My only coping strategy at this point, is to find that place deep in my soul, where only God and I exist. It is only there that I can feel a small amount a hope and imagine that my kid may find a way out of this. Divine intervention is possible and miracles can happen.
I am praying that the forthcoming financial crisis brings a number of our children home. I’m sure God knows what he’s doing
May you find your way through.....♥️ 🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing your feelings. You DID find the words for your fears and questions.
My heart aches… I KNOW these exact feelings. I’m so very sorry… I pray for you as watch & wait. May you be filled with hope, grace, comfort that only the Lord can give. I pray you are able to “wait well” — not despairing. I pray this daily for myself as I also walk this unbelievably heart-breaking path. Your hurt, desperation & heart wrenching pain are seen — YOU ARE SEEN - you are held. ❤️
Migraines
I hear the grief in your message.
I want to address one thing you mentioned: Migraine headaches
Lifestyle factors support brain health.
Nutrition patterns link to cognitive support.
These aren’t cures, but they’re for brain health.
Ketogenic or low‑carb diets.
ketogenic diets influence brain energy metabolism and reduce neuroinflammation.
- People report improved mental clarity and mood.
Stable blood sugar
- Avoiding large glucose spikes can help with mood stability.
- achieved through protein‑rich meals, animal fats like butter, and minimizing ultra‑processed foods.
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Nutrients for brain function
Magnesium (including bisglycinate)
- for nervous system regulation and sleep quality.
- Magnesium bisglycinate is known for good absorption and gentler GI effects.
Omega‑3 fatty acids (EPA/DHA)
- Found in fatty fish or supplements.
- Associated with brain health and reduced inflammation.
Iodine - from ocean foods or iodine drops.
B‑vitamins (especially B1, B6, B9, B12)
- Important for neurotransmitter synthesis and energy metabolism.
- Deficiencies affect mood and cognition.
Vitamin D
- Plays a role in immune function and brain signaling.
- Low vitamin D is common in most people.
Creatine
— the brain uses it for energy buffering.
- especially under stress or sleep deprivation.
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Sleep and circadian rhythm.
Sleep is one of the strongest levers for brain function.
- Consistent sleep/wake times
- Morning light exposure
- Limiting screens 1–2 hours before bed
- Keeping the bedroom cool and dark
These support melatonin rhythms and cognitive recovery.
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Physical activity.
Not for fitness — for neurobiology.
- Aerobic exercise increases BDNF (a growth factor for neurons).
- Strength training supports metabolic health and hormone balance.
- Even 10–15 minutes of walking can shift stress chemistry.
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Stress‑regulation practices.
- Slow breathing (especially long exhales) activates the parasympathetic system.
- Time in nature reduces cortisol and improves cognitive performance.
- Social connection — even brief, low‑stakes interactions — buffers stress.
Cognitive load management
Your brain is overloaded. Reducing unnecessary inputs helps.
- Limiting doom‑scrolling
- Reducing multitasking
- Creating small pockets of quiet
- Using lists or journaling to reduce mental clutter
Avoid known cognitive stresses.
- sleep deprivation
- alcohol
- Ultra‑processed foods
- High‑conflict environments
- Constant digital stimulation
I will add:
1. glycine powder in lukewarm water + NAC pill - neurotransmitters, antioxidant, sleep quality, etc
2. A pill of Alpha-lipoic acid + acetyl L-carnitine powder in lukewarm water on empty stomach is excellent if you take it when migraine is approaching. Helps with regular headache as well (tested on myself).
I eat enough meat that carnatine is not an issue for me, but many people are avoiding meat (which in my opinion it is a mistake to avoid meat). So a supplement can help. Glycine is very interesting. It can be used as a sweetener, and if it is used to substitute and avoid sugar, it can very helpful.
Alexander, I'm with you on importance of meat. I stayed on keto for a year and a half and god rid of lots of health issues. My migraines went from happening every couple of weeks during winter and lasting for 48 hours+ to 1-2 per year. Massive change. Then I switched to a low carb "diet" and stay with it.
🫂I feel so much of this. In my case, my daughter. One who gave me no trouble until the plague kidnapped her mind at an age (23) I thought we were past teenage cult concerns. Yet the vampires came and sucked the life from her and it so few people in my circle can even remotely empathize what it feels like to try to sleep at night and the dread of another morning each day revealing the reality of a nightmare I haven't awakened from.
My daughter was 32 when she suddenly and without any hint of prior dysphoria decided that “she has always been a boy”. As a widower with only her as my family, I am at a complete loss for what to do.
There is no rational explanation for any of this. You are not alone. 💜
💔
I feel your pain, its a lonely road as friends just dont get it. 23 yes i would have thought you’d passed the “danger zone” for all if this. Mine was 17. I am sorry this has happened to your family
Mine was 17 too when she had herself accommodated by social workers behind our back after we were declared a risk for not affirming her
Terrible, mine was encouraged to run away from home by a youth worker at school behind my back!!
Evil groomers!
Same nightmare here, my easy, intelligent, compassionate daughter was 22. Praying we can all come out of this nightmare very soon.
We're in the same boat together. My son is planning his surgery for this July. I don't know what to do or how to cope. It feels like thats his death day and I want to die with him.
No parent can be prepared for this.
A grief like no other.
Praying for you and your son, Rachel.
God I’m so sorry. 😢
I am so, so sorry. How painful. Sending prayers and wishes for your son to wake up and come back to you.