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Caroline Kemball's avatar

You thoroughly comb through every emotion people feel in this case and probably many others, liberally. It is freeing to realise that my deep pain, regrets, hopes, rancour, hate are shared and normal. That the erosion of my love for her is no more than a defence mechanism.

I share the blissful absorption into a world gone by, the horror of losing a child, which I never thought could take on this form,

I know the bland taste of denial, the sting you speak of at the sight of those unaffected, the scream and buzzing in my head, the fear of succumbing to emotional turmoil. The occasional sudden desire to harm someone who affirms, or the wish to battle this on horseback and with sword to give my tension a due outlet.

We are with you in this, thank you for giving such unashamed acknowledgement to our feelings 💜

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Oregon Mom's avatar

We all miss the "before" when life was normal. I feel I must have been asleep when all this started infecting my daughter. The guilt for not being alerted sooner and the anger at the world around me are omnipresent. I understand your pain.

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