Having one of those days where I’ve just been screaming in my head all day when I’m not openly weeping. And it’ll probably go on all night. I don’t know how to convince my lovely niece and nephews and brother and sister-in-law that I really do just want to be alone this Christmas. I love them all dearly, but I just don’t think I can see them all enjoying Christmas together without falling apart wishing my son were there. I just want to feel what I feel in peace without battling to hide it from everyone or imposing it on their happy day. I want to just be in my own home alone where I can scream my grief out loud to the walls - nobody can alter that grief, so I just want to endure the day without having to perform the happy pantomime. So sorry to all the parents here struggling. Wish I had some magic wisdom that would help - I’d certainly be applying it to myself if I could.
Hi to all, I'm new here. Its been 3 years since I've seen my child's face. I've heard that this cutting off from family is part of this and I'm trying to find peace and grace. Thats all I want to say right now.
Thank you for sharing. It is exactly how I feel. This is our first year since our son became lost. The holidays are the hardest. Just empty and sad. And those thoughts and worries in the dark in the middle of the night haunt me.
When I read how many people haven't seen their children for 5, 9, 10 years or more, all because of this gender madness... I wonder if they're having some kind of internal competition to see who can go the longest without contacting the parents :(
I was confronted with the accusation: "You'd rather have no contact with me for so little?" This "little" means denying the truth and God's creation.
I'd have to consider her mentally ill, otherwise I couldn't call her by her chosen name. Which I don't. It hurts too much... especially since the chosen name isn't even a name!
I would have to give up on my daughter, the one I gave birth to and raised the best i could.
Even though I know her soul is still there, as pure and beautiful as ever... I won't fight her ego. I don't want to make it stronger. I'll ignore it.
I tell myself: this is HER way, not mine. Only God knows why she has to go through this. I'm no longer interfering in His plan.
Sending blessings and love to all the hurt parents. And to all innocent children. They don't know what the're doing.
I grieve ,I weep , I scream , I barely survive and most days don't want to. This is evil !! The devil came to kill steel and destroy and he has been given way too much ground . My prayer would be no more mother's would ever know the pain of their child being so deceived that they mutilate and sterilize themselves .
A silent scream is invariably depleting, and I appreciate your wherewithal to share your scream. I, too, like other PITT parents endure a silent scream about my son's mental and physical health hijacked by our sick culture. Your essay helps me feel less lonely with my inverted scream. I appreciate your distilling the truth about my grief to this: "I'm a mom after all" (to the Dads, I know you suffer, too, with thwarted love.) Parents endure a torturous silent scream because we feel with every fiber of our being a yearning to protect our children. But there is a tsunami of insanity around us mocking and desecrating this primal instinct.
Also, I agree with your declaration that "the alarm bells can’t be silenced and they shouldn’t be. We know the truth. This is all so wrong."
To silence the alarm bells is to acquiesce to the horror. To say "This is all so wrong" is at once spot-on and an understatement. I'm not religious, but this all feels evil.
Truth matters. God created man and woman. Science shows us that we are man or woman in our DNA. Hold onto the truth with every ounce of strength. Let Jesus and Mary into your grief, let them accompany you. Call out in your pain to them, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” He hasn’t abandoned you, or your child. He is there with you. Call out to Him.
It was the peer support parent group recommended by Genspect and Jo who is the administrator.
They pigeon holed the parents into two groups. You are passive and are welcome. But it creates a reinforcing feedback loop of despair.
On the other hand if you are an active mother seeing the power in the group and together we can find our children. Then you are labeled an activist rather than a frantic mother seeing the end to this hell.
Grief, you said it so well. We feel impotent, powerless, somebody else put us in the mental asylum that is the world today. We want to escape but we will be alone at least inside they are others like us, other parents. You are not alone but the hurting is personal. Someday the trans will wake up of that nightmare, they are not so much the problem but the victims. The problem are the monsters out there that push them and encourage them and support them and they will pay with HELL.
Yes, so many innocent victims. I cant even be mad because I know how vulnerable my child is and brainwashed. They're groomed by Psychopaths, Monsters but believe we're the bad ones that belong in a mental institution.
I feel I could commit myself sometimes but honestly would rather just close my eyes and not wake up in this evil world. If i speak up, I am villanized, slandered and lied about across social media of how horrible of a person I am. They want to stick the knife in, twist it and then pull the heart out if one doesn't go along with the insanity. It's all cruel and sick!
I'm so sorry. I haven't lost my daughter completely (yet) but she is medicalizing. I pray that you can find a way to still find meaning in life's milestones. We owe it to our other loved ones to not let trans defeat us, even if it's defeated our children. Hugs to you.
Having one of those days where I’ve just been screaming in my head all day when I’m not openly weeping. And it’ll probably go on all night. I don’t know how to convince my lovely niece and nephews and brother and sister-in-law that I really do just want to be alone this Christmas. I love them all dearly, but I just don’t think I can see them all enjoying Christmas together without falling apart wishing my son were there. I just want to feel what I feel in peace without battling to hide it from everyone or imposing it on their happy day. I want to just be in my own home alone where I can scream my grief out loud to the walls - nobody can alter that grief, so I just want to endure the day without having to perform the happy pantomime. So sorry to all the parents here struggling. Wish I had some magic wisdom that would help - I’d certainly be applying it to myself if I could.
Hi to all, I'm new here. Its been 3 years since I've seen my child's face. I've heard that this cutting off from family is part of this and I'm trying to find peace and grace. Thats all I want to say right now.
Thank you for sharing. It is exactly how I feel. This is our first year since our son became lost. The holidays are the hardest. Just empty and sad. And those thoughts and worries in the dark in the middle of the night haunt me.
This ideology has stolen so much from us. My heart goes out to you. Stay strong.
So sorry... I wish I could help you! Keep strong. You did right.
My heart weeps.... Thank you for sharing.
When I read how many people haven't seen their children for 5, 9, 10 years or more, all because of this gender madness... I wonder if they're having some kind of internal competition to see who can go the longest without contacting the parents :(
I was confronted with the accusation: "You'd rather have no contact with me for so little?" This "little" means denying the truth and God's creation.
I'd have to consider her mentally ill, otherwise I couldn't call her by her chosen name. Which I don't. It hurts too much... especially since the chosen name isn't even a name!
I would have to give up on my daughter, the one I gave birth to and raised the best i could.
Even though I know her soul is still there, as pure and beautiful as ever... I won't fight her ego. I don't want to make it stronger. I'll ignore it.
I tell myself: this is HER way, not mine. Only God knows why she has to go through this. I'm no longer interfering in His plan.
Sending blessings and love to all the hurt parents. And to all innocent children. They don't know what the're doing.
Sending love out to all who deeply understand exactly what you’ve shared. I just pray that someday soon all this insanity too will pass. ❤️🩹
It IS all so wrong, and I am very sorry. Thank you for sharing.
I grieve ,I weep , I scream , I barely survive and most days don't want to. This is evil !! The devil came to kill steel and destroy and he has been given way too much ground . My prayer would be no more mother's would ever know the pain of their child being so deceived that they mutilate and sterilize themselves .
Oh God. This really broke my heart for the writer.
A silent scream is invariably depleting, and I appreciate your wherewithal to share your scream. I, too, like other PITT parents endure a silent scream about my son's mental and physical health hijacked by our sick culture. Your essay helps me feel less lonely with my inverted scream. I appreciate your distilling the truth about my grief to this: "I'm a mom after all" (to the Dads, I know you suffer, too, with thwarted love.) Parents endure a torturous silent scream because we feel with every fiber of our being a yearning to protect our children. But there is a tsunami of insanity around us mocking and desecrating this primal instinct.
Also, I agree with your declaration that "the alarm bells can’t be silenced and they shouldn’t be. We know the truth. This is all so wrong."
To silence the alarm bells is to acquiesce to the horror. To say "This is all so wrong" is at once spot-on and an understatement. I'm not religious, but this all feels evil.
The pain will never go away, but reading others posts and saying how I feel here is the only thing helping me right now.
Truth matters. God created man and woman. Science shows us that we are man or woman in our DNA. Hold onto the truth with every ounce of strength. Let Jesus and Mary into your grief, let them accompany you. Call out in your pain to them, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” He hasn’t abandoned you, or your child. He is there with you. Call out to Him.
I’m crying as I read all these comments because they are all so relatable and they make me feel so hopeless.
It’s been 2 1/2 yrs for me.
I just want my son to come home!💔
Even the support group kick grieving parents out when the display the depths of their grief.
From leaders at Genspect.
Genspect is great but are making mistakes.
Parent lead support groups cancel grieving parents out when they want to silence their voicing their grief.
It was the peer support parent group recommended by Genspect and Jo who is the administrator.
They pigeon holed the parents into two groups. You are passive and are welcome. But it creates a reinforcing feedback loop of despair.
On the other hand if you are an active mother seeing the power in the group and together we can find our children. Then you are labeled an activist rather than a frantic mother seeing the end to this hell.
Grief, you said it so well. We feel impotent, powerless, somebody else put us in the mental asylum that is the world today. We want to escape but we will be alone at least inside they are others like us, other parents. You are not alone but the hurting is personal. Someday the trans will wake up of that nightmare, they are not so much the problem but the victims. The problem are the monsters out there that push them and encourage them and support them and they will pay with HELL.
Yes, so many innocent victims. I cant even be mad because I know how vulnerable my child is and brainwashed. They're groomed by Psychopaths, Monsters but believe we're the bad ones that belong in a mental institution.
I feel I could commit myself sometimes but honestly would rather just close my eyes and not wake up in this evil world. If i speak up, I am villanized, slandered and lied about across social media of how horrible of a person I am. They want to stick the knife in, twist it and then pull the heart out if one doesn't go along with the insanity. It's all cruel and sick!
I'm so sorry. I haven't lost my daughter completely (yet) but she is medicalizing. I pray that you can find a way to still find meaning in life's milestones. We owe it to our other loved ones to not let trans defeat us, even if it's defeated our children. Hugs to you.
That's about where we are.