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It's not like when we were teens, going thru puberty. My son has had surgery -- I knew nothing about it for months. I'm horrified. His life will never be the same when and if he wakes up out of this nightmare. All respect for me has gone. Seems part of the "plan" with this group.

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I too am curious...how are you now? This entry was sadly so long ago. And why are you on an air mattress? I ask because my 21 year old daughter makes it so miserable in our house that I want to leave sometimes. But there is no where to go and I cannot do that to my husband and other children. It's hell. It's not fair. Why are they allowed to get away with such abhorent behavior?

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SC - I had been, at the time, sleeping on an air bed temporarily because I was sleeping at a friend’s house. Eventually I got a real bed, but not a permanent home. It’s a long story, but I have had to move a lot within a few years. Health problems and financial problems go hand in hand, exacerbated by the pain of being estranged by my only child. I’m having to move yet again. I’m so done with moving... and so done with the trans agenda.

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"How did my own mother deal with this regarding my own prepubescent tomboy youth? How did I survive my own (“gender”) deviations to become who I am?"

The simple truth to your query is that you didn't have a constant barrage of inane girlish chatter encouraging and entrapping your mind into a simple paradigm of how cool it is to be transgender, and then receiving even more attention for doing so than you've ever felt before. Because attention feels good no matter what the introverts say, and when you get it you start to feel it's what's missing from your life. And then you learn that if you just go ahead and switch genders, like a magic light switch, that deep desire you have to feel noticed gets rewarded when the love of others comes flooding in for your "bravery". And the deeper your commitment to changing who are in the eyes of others, the greater the affection will be for being seen as a pioneer of this new venture.

It can never last though, the same way drugs wear off as you learn to tolerate their strength, so you keeping upping the dosage til eventually you OD. The same will happen to most of these girls too.

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You touch a very important point, womanhood is not found in appearance or behavior ONLY. What is going on now is an agenda and they are victims not of our times but of a specific agenda of depopulation, I would call it "sterilization 101" programming. We all have been children and we know for sure that never in our childhood we thought in terms of gender, no once children would think -Am I a boy or a girl?_NEVER, until now, because now somebody else is asking you this question, a question that it wasn't a worry before simple because the question is stupid and non sense. Now children of course wants attention specially under certain circumstances, youth also are dealing with a crazy world, adults as us have the duty to help them, not push them down into much confusion and lies but help them to realize what is real and what is not. I was a tomboy, I played with boys the most, i wear pants until i fall in love for first time and I wanted to look nicer and I asked my Mom for a dress, my Mom knew, that is the natural way of things. Nobody never asked me once if I was a boy inside, I would have thought that the person asking was an idiot. Now parents are rushing to the pediatricians when their children ask about gender and ask themselves if their boys or girls are the opposite sex, but parents also fall for that trap because they have been indoctrinated for years and they also like the attention that the new transidiocy brings, we do "come up parties for children of 6 years old", "my boy is a girl!!!Yuppie!!, lets do a party!.

We must fight back stating the obvious, we cannot change our gender we are created with it in our genetic "matrix", when some form ask you that, you write down on the side"nobody gave me the gender, I borne with it" or when somebody ask you that, I say "who did give me the gender", the person usually answers "your doctor, your Mom, society" and we must say-No, you are wrong, I was formed in the womb of my Mom, a woman, because only women are made for motherhood, when the sperm of my Father, sperm that only men have and the egg of my Mom got together, i am formed by half of my Mom's genes and half my Dad's genes and the gender was just one variable of two outcomes, male and female, when both genetic parts got together and formed one human. Sometimes if the conversation turns deeper they can say that "gender is a social construct" and you say "yes, it is, it is a social construct around your gender, meaning a physical reality", still they want to dismiss it but still they insist to change it anyway, that is of course a terrible contradiction. We don't need to get aggressive just say the truth every time until they get it or until everything gets exposed for what it is. It helps if we do not push stereotypes too rigid about being a boy or a girl or a man or a woman, not all men are GI-Joe and not all women are Cinderellas or Barbies, there is a full spectrum of personalities and tendencies, context is important, if it happens that a boy have a sister and maybe wants to try her shoes, we don't do a big deal about it but the sister probably will say to him not to be silly if the boy insist and she might remind him that boys don't want to wear those uncomfortable shoes, "because you know, being a woman is very hard", or some another "situation". But still there are physical realities that we must respect and learn to love. Also I would limit TV, phones and computers to children, and some movies, because all this ideas come from outside, very careful picking schools also, and be vocal when school boards want to teach children sex-ed, a child needs to be free of worry, sex belongs to adults, not children.

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The sad thing for me about this post...that it was from your journal in 2018. Trying to stay hopeful, but when will this be over? Is it still to get worse before it gets better? Unless it’s your own kid & personal to you, people just don’t seem to get how wrong & backward this is. Stay strong.

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You didn't HAVE gender deviations. You were simply a girl. Now you're a woman (I presume you're an adult). Girls and women can be anything they want to be: a "tomboy" or not a tomboy; a girl who likes traditionally boy things, or traditionally girl things, or both (i.e., a woman who is "not completely one way or the other"). Still a woman; always a woman no matter what.

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I feel your pain and panic and anger this will be the “Thalidomide” of our time.

Our courts will be full of the misery created by this insane brainwashing of our youth as will our “real” hospitals and clinics who will have to deal with permanently damaged humans with massive regrets and irreversible problems.

This needs to stop NOW!

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I totally get this. Even now as she’s gone back to female she shins normalcy and makes life almost unbearable.

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Richard Dawkins recently spoke against this ideology and how it's nonsensical. I thought some would of them would agree and listen since he's an evolutionary biologist. No, they insist that one can be a biologist and idiotic at the same time. They call him right-wing and hateful. Instead of listening to a biologist who has written many books, they are following the green haired clerk at Planned Parenthood. All I see is people with swirls where their eyes are, just following a cult. Bigger than the Moonies or Jim Jones cult but the same adherence.

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Glad Richard Dawkins spoke about reality here. I'll look for the speech.

If they dis-entangle it from biology, some of what the gender cult says makes sense. Gender (the software) can be a spectrum. There can be infinite configurations. No need to count, label, and give them all flags.

But we can agree on some of the basic points ... sometimes there's a gender essence that's different from the sex one is born as. Some people feel in the spaces between. Sometimes kids as young as toddlers are absolutely sure .. that their essence is feminine, even tho they're a boy .. maybe they even turn their onesie into a dress to express that they know this.

And in no sane universe would any of that equate to throwing them in a pipeline that starts with confusion and pronouns and attempts to deny biological reality by poisoning and cutting young bodies.

The gender cult can have all the points they want - about the software. But the hardware is biological reality, sex is binary, not just in humans, so it can't be a social construct.

They're conflating software and hardware / essence and biology. And the non-heteronormative-respect-diversity population they're claiming to protect are the ones they hurt the most.

Biology is not letting itself be re-constructed based on delusions + manipulation + twisted agenda that's infiltrated medical schools. The system that creates bone marrow, and orgasm, and life, has not got the memo that puberty can be paused and men can become women and women can become men and reality can be whatever they want it to be.

Biology is biology. Disrespect it and bad things happen. . .

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"they're a boy"

my head hurts

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No, we cannot agree on your basic points! You are repeating the trans cult's propaganda (a baby turning their onesie into a dress?!?! Seriously?!?!). There are no gender essences that are different or the same as biological sex. There are only stereotypes: what some people, even in 2023, believe are boy traits and girl traits, and if you deviate from those stereotypes, off to the trans doc with you! If we'd leave kids alone to be what they want to be, even for just a moment, and not try to make them fulfill time-worn stereotypes, we wouldn't have a trans problem.

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I'm sorry ... I didn't mean to repeat their propaganda .. just meant to say that they're conflating essence with need-for-a-different-biology.

I was trying, I guess unsuccessfully, to say that the conclusions they take things to (off to the trans doc with you!), make no sense, even if there's something to what they're observing.

Much of what they say are "gender signals" are natural things kids do, but maybe more so it's true for boys with feminine essence or girls with masculine essence.

What I meant was something like Ben Appel says here, " I wanted to help create a world in which feminine boys and butch girls could exist peacefully in society. A world in which gender-nonconforming people were accepted as natural variations of their own sex."

(https://www.spiked-online.com/2023/05/14/the-new-homophobia/)

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Understood.

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What was there to survive? And how did your parents deal with "it"? What was there to deal with? Where do all these expectations come from? Love.

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What was there to survive? And how did your parents deal with "it"? What was there to deal with? Where do all these expectations come from? Love.

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I also must say, it’s not always our children who have this demonic possession but the people who are influencing and controlling their minds making it so hard for them to resist and pull away from the evil of this world. I feel this power struggle often in my home. But, I still and must continue to stand firm in the truth, loving my daughter and continuously trying to draw my daughter back.

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I’m nodding as I read your comment. Those people taking advantage of the innate vulnerability of young women, young men, are vastly responsible for a lot of this, absolutely.

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The mother I know seems to bask in her daughter's new "manhood" as a symbol of her own proud progressivism. It's nauseating.

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I hope one day those people basking in this virtue signalling, affirming & progressive idiocy will feel like idiots when and if this all cones tumbling down. It only takes reality & nature to reveal this is nothing more than smoke and mirrors, snake oil tainted with butchery. I hate this trans movement with such passion that it is the ONLY thing in the world that makes me need to pray for forgiveness for the thoughts i have towards it.

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That is truly nauseating.

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This is so hard to watch our daughters disappear before our eyes. The last time I saw my youngest daughter, now age 41, in the Summer of 2017, the thought came to me, “She is a Chimera.” Not female anymore, not ever male. Forever altered by surgery and drugs. The daughter I once knew is gone forever. Even if she changed her mind, her voice will remain deep, her build bulky, her hairline will continue to recede, and who knows how her heart is doing with T in her system for the past six years. It is like she died because the person she was did die, but this person who is connected to me remains. The one who will not speak to me because I do not agree she became a man. The biggest pain is thinking her daughter, my granddaughter, who was five when this started. She lost her mother. I have not seen her since this started. We are not allowed because we will not “affirm” this insanity. I send my granddaughter gifts and never receive a response. I hope someday when she is a legal adult she will reach out. I am not holding my breath, however. Indoctrination is a real thing and we may be the boogeymen to her, based on what she has been told. The whole thing is a moving open wound that never heals. I want you to know, I understand your pain and we’re you beside me, I would give you a hug.

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The harm this does to generations within the family is immeasurable.

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I appreciate your visceral assessment of the pain of losing my college age son to the trans cult:"The whole thing is a moving open wound that never heals." The open wound festers with the lack of outrage toward this heinous cult stealing vulnerable children and young "adults", while shattering families.

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I work in publishing c defense law, specifically court appointed to represent parents whose kids are taken by CPS. The group think and cult like acceptance of ROGD (mostly girls) just astounds me every week in court. I have to keep my mouth shut to get my clients’ kids home. In some cases, every time a case is in the docket, a “trans” kid has a new name. One kid, five names before she went back to her own name. I try to keep my hands from smacking my head IRL while sitting there in court. When will people wake up?! They are like guides on the path to hell.

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Oh grandma, I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what it must be like for grandparents standing on the side watching this train wreck in a generation that seems to have lost its marbles. This is a huge loss for you and although my son is now straddling the line between hormones and desisting, i know all too well how this hell road feels. It isn't death, but yet it is death. It is worse, as you watch your child disappear into the shadows of an evil destructive cult that make our modern world feel like dystopia.

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Your story brought tears to my eyes. How heartbreaking this is. As a mother and grandmother, I can’t imagine the pain this is giving you! It’s horrific to lose a child to a dread disease , but this is as bad... maybe worse, since you must so want to see your daughter and your granddaughter!

This cult is devastating and cruel !

That anyone supports this is beyond belief! I hold all of them guilty of the suffering they are causing to so many!

My heart goes out to you!

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I’m so sorry you’re going through this. The pain and frustration is never ending. It’s extremely difficult to “get on with things”. I feel for you... 😟

It’s been 5 years today since I have had a private conversation or any communication with my daughter. I’ve only seen pictures and videos from her social media...

I don’t know if she’s had a double mastectomy or not, I don’t know if she’s on testosterone, and her father, who she moved in with a few years ago, won’t tell me what’s going on with her. Plus, he uses the preferred pronouns he/they, and her “male” name. He’s captured. She moved out a few months ago, and I was not given a new address. I’m afraid I’ll never even have the possibility of any grandkids ever. She’s been binding for years... it’s disheartening that binding can be so damaging to the female breasts, and that the trans script calls for breast removal. I’ve gone through breast cancer, and it’s not fun - at all.

These young girls have no clue what they’re doing. It’s so sad, so awful. And the pain? They really haven’t researched enough.

Best wishes to you and your family.

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I am so sorry for your experiences too. It just sucks for all of us. I am also a BC survivor and my younger son has gotten into this as well. He is an AGP male who is likely gay but he is married to another man who also pretends to be a woman. They both have two kids. Both in the Army, and our military lets them dress up like women for work. Tax payer dollars for their surgeries. What I cannot understand is why he would take estrogen when his mother is a survivor. It is baffling to me.

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I am so sorry for your loss and all you have been through/are going through. I usually blame the proffesuonals and upper eshalons for allowing this, but there arw certainly days when i am angry at my kids for falling for this crap and not trusting us as parents. It truly feels like an evil has overtaken them 💔🙏💔

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The damage Trannyism is doing to the world is incalculable, all the lives, all the families, people forced to lie, it is a nightmare, we must make it stop. It is an assault on us all because of sicko weird perverted people spreading their terrible ideas to our most vulnerable: kids going through puberty. Damn them to hell!

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I'm with you on that

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You're right. But they can't force you to lie.

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How to turn this around: we stand firm in our beliefs and the truth.- never wavering.

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You are not alone, dear friend & increasing numbers of the public are joining you in your fight against the pernicious cult of QT+. The QT+ are spreading their evil influence in every way they can. They have already taken over Pride events, marching in highly sexualised outfits in front of children.

You may find the LGB Alliance helpful; they are divorced from the QT+ & are doing their best to help parents like you. Best wishes from England. 🙏

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Thank you so much for saying "QY+" and for recognizing that there really is no "LGBTQ+." We need to get that message out there more. The cult of the TQ+ has done so much damage to the LGB that they attached themselves to (without permission) that I don't know if we'll ever recover from it.

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That is my fear too. And now, at least in England, they are calling themselves

TQIA+ - trans, queer, intersex & asexual plus. They are neither gay nor queer. They hate LGB and women equally. They are a men’s ’sexual rights’ cult including, for the most part, paedophiles & autogynophiles. It’s terrifying that their cult has taken such a hold on society. The only answer, as I see it, is for parents to launch class actions against the therapists, drug companies & surgeons who enable this butchery of vulnerable children.

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