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Thank you for this.

I vividly remember; shortly after our daughter and her therapist told us; after the shell shock; I cried everyday even while at work. Tears would come flowing as I walk around the hospital delivering meds to the wards and clinics. I just made sure no one would see my tears.

It’s a constant struggle…

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This truth hurts a lot but thank you. You said it all and then some; crying a lot but thankful for your post. God bless us all, grieving but hopeful parents who unceasingly love our kids…

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I see you. Thank you for seeing me. It was so good of you to take my phone call when I, your new friend and almost-stranger, called you crying. You were the one I wanted to talk to because in that moment today I needed to be seen.

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Very moving and I fervently hope that suffering parents find some comfort in it. However ,I really can't suppress my anger at everyone who supports this abhorrent family destroying ,child mutilating cult ,however "well intentioned " they claim to be. The evidence of extreme harm is everywhere and overwhelming. Shame on the MSM for not reporting this accurately. God Bless all those affected x❤️🙏

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Grieving the living is a silent lonely journey. You sum this up so well. Last month a friend lost he husband suddenly, many of us are running round checking in on her making food etc..

On one of "my" not so good days I came home from visiting & wept - then felt guilty that I was weeping not for her but for myself! I am in a state of constant grief but as you have said no one has dropped off a meal or taken me for a walk or just sat with me while I talk of my memories of my lost daughter. You have described the absolute devastation & grief we are all going through. Again thank you this is the only place I feel I can truly be heard & understood. I hear you & I know you can hear me.

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May the scourge of gender ideology fade into the mists of time.

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If I could give you a standing ovation, I would. Well spoken, friend. 💗

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I am sorry, too.

Thank you.

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thank you

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Thank you! You definitely feel me. Parents all over are grieving our children but forced to grieve in silence. The world is yelling at us to NOT grieve our “dead name” child and celebrate our new child. Our child who now suffers with deeper mental health issues and thanks to all you professionals, lifelong medical issues. You have succeeded in separating the most important support these kids have - loving parents. It’s heartbreaking and this will not end well. Shame on all of you.

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thank you

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Thank you thank you thank you 😭❤

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You have so beautifully described my grief and loss. Thank you. I wish that you and all the parents who read and post here had no understanding of this grief. But it is something we all carry.

My daughter has effectively 'died' and I am being told to embrace and celebrate the person responsible for her 'death', as well as the gaggle of supporters/enablers. To keep her in my life, I use negotiated pronouns - they/them, I refuse to ever refer to my only daughter as he/him - the new name and don't actively challenge the nonsense she often comes out with. I still find it hard to believe that my intelligent, sociable, compassionate, beautiful daughter has bought into this cult. But I suppose that's what brainwashing does.

I still have hope. She is lacking motivation in her life to the point where she doesn't always get the regular hormone injection (has to be administered by a doctor where we live). She hasn't changed physically much, apart from the deepened voice, most of which I think is training rather than hormonally induced. No facial hair. Has small breasts so surgery hasn't been a priority. And sometimes occasionally wears feminine style clothing, albeit goth look. But I need to get her away from the people who put her on this path to begin with, and considering they're her work colleagues, it's not easy. And no doubt she will gravitate again to similar groups even if she does stop working there.

I run most days in a nature reserve near our house. That's where I do my crying (and in the shower) and shout her name, willing her back to herself and maybe one day, back to me. I call her name to the birds, as it's the only time I am allowed to say it. But I will never stop saying her name. It is hers and no one, not even this mass delusion, can erase her name from the world.

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oh you more darling mother I am crying imagining you in this pain- the pain I also feel!

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Amen. Keep shouting it!

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Thank you, it’s almost as if someone were doing these things for me. Thank you, thank you.

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Thank you❤️😢

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I am sobbing in my closet at this moment, as I read your words. Every single one screams truth to me. I am in so much pain for my daughter it is undescribable. Someone - anyone - I am begging- PLEASE MAKE IT STOP. I cannot bear to learn what certain people have been doing behind our oblivious backs to ruin a society I trusted. This poison plan runs deep, deep, deep below the surface. Thank you so much for writing this to others. And for yourself. We are all out here.

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